because i chose to screw myself up, so am i. no one forced me to. i have to find my own solution to clear up this mess and start anew if not i will always be stucked in this vicious cycle. i must be willing to learn and curb my over-enthusiasm especially when i want to achieve something with immediate effect knowing that it will not happen. over-enthusiasm kills, slow and steady is the way to win the race. i am not a product of a screwed up family, it is just some other obstacle that doesn't break me but make me stronger than ever. i should never entertain the thoughts of evil, it should not even came to me naturally. that is sin. i must learn how to love my body. i must learn how to love,respect and accept myself before others can love me. no one is perfect.

god, please help me especially the recovery of my ankle. thank you. god bless all.
happy belated bday sj.

i don't understand why arts and social sciences and profect & facilities management are one of the most sought after courses in uni! now i feel kind of gone case.

regretted not studying harder for the 5th semester and gave up SAM. it's so near yet so far. now it's time to move on and achieve something different. 4-5months of training for the effort to be paid off. will be starting once i recover. hope i can presevere. god bless all.

felicia chin rocks my socks. stargirl.

I was quiet as a mouse
When I snuck into your house
And took roofies with your spouse
In a nit, and out a louse

And lice are lousy all the time
They suck your blood drink your wine
Say "Shut up and quit your crying
Give it time and you'll be fine,"

You're so nice and you're so smart
You're such a good friend, I have to break your heart
Tell you that I love you then I'll tear your world apart
Just pretend I didn't tear your world apart

I like boys with strong convictions
And convicts with perfect diction
Underdogs with good intentions
Amputees with stamp collections
Plywood skinboards ride the ocean
Salty noses, suntan lotion
Always seriously joking
And rambunctiously soft-spoken

I like boys that like their mothers
And I have a thing for brothers
But they always wait till we're under the covers
To say "I'm sure glad we're not lovers,"

You're so nice and you're so smart
You're such a good friend, I have to break your heart
Tell you that I love you then I'll tear your world apart
Just pretend I didn't tear your world apart

I like my new bunny suit
I like my new bunny suit
I like my new bunny suit
When I wear it, I feel cute


ohhhh. ellen page is so pretty. 21 february. pisces. older than me. rich.

Lesson learnt: Go to Running Lab @ Funan IT mall before buying the shoes. They will help you see what kind of feet and biomechanics you have before recommending the right shoes for you although it's a tad slightly more expensive. It will benefit you in the long run by keeping you more injury-free especially when you do long distance training. If you are thick skin enough, you just go there to have your feet tested on the threadmill and then get advice from them before going to queensway to get the shoes.

brand new Asics 1130(Mens) is for sale.
US size 8; EURO 41.5, 26CM (regular fit)
Colour: White/Platinum/Chili Pepper.
It's an entry level shoes for runners with
slightly more than normal pronation with normal arch feet.
It's slightly too small for me. Hence, i've decided to sell it off when i collected it 3 days ago.
It's going off for $135. Price is negotiable.

More information at this website.

i don't know why all the bad things happen all at one time. when it's bored, it's really bored that i feel like crap. when i'm busy, i'm so so busy that i'll have to reject some other activities. i wonder why is that so.

don't know if i should take up relief teaching? i can't teach for nuts, forgotten all my e.maths in sec sch. i don't really want to see pri sch kids.

injury + hungry + lost + feeling bad = v moody

i don't know if i look forward to tomorrow and this coming monday.

cropped off nikewomen.com.sg

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so why not give it a try?
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I'M ONE HAPPY BOY RIGHT NOW (excluding the injury).

i dislike rain in the day.

i used the atm card for the 5th time since i got the on 20th feb. now 1/5 of my savings are gone. so cool. i knew this will happen but not so fast!

i don't know if i made the right choice. but this shoes i ordered will be the most costly one i have ever decide to buy on my own. it's cost exactly 1.6 as much as my current adidas now. wow. this better protect my knees well, not like the stupid street soccer one i've bought. crap.

i like carol in the channel 8 9pm show. she's uber cool. i wish i have such a girlfriend, so that i can show off in public but slap her at home because she's so arrogance/spoilt. but then again, i like spoilt girls in some ways. she's tall/smart/pretty/sexy. maybe even before i slap her, she already kick my balls. how cool is that? hahaha.

stupid. i can't think properly now.

i learnt not to be a hero anymore. my eyes are irritated, red and super dry. i also don't use soap to shower after every swim session. its so scary. i didn't know chlorine can do so much damage. i must hurry go buy a swimming gogle before the next swim session.

i was wondering why girls seem more matured than guys of the same age? is it because of their dressing that made them behave like a demure lady? in that case, their actions are deemed mature, but what about their thinking? then again, actions are done after the thought is processed. so it shows that they are matured?!

but maybe they don't know what they really know the rationale behind it so they just think that should be the way because that is how the society works, so they just follow. after that, even though they don't really know what is correct/wrong it is considered correct (based on society). so they are happy/satisfied with it?

but then why females can be satisfied over all the simple things yet gucci, prada can make them happy? they say it is a bonus, but every little thing counts. ah, so easy. just treat them like a princess then! but then treating them like a princess means it includes both the 'factor' mentioned.

confusing. i wonder anyone understand what i'm driving at.

i feel so empty, alone, bored yet again. played soccer in the rain yesterday. it was so much more relaxing playing with secondary school mates compared to my cousins and his friends. after that, went to his place. it was oens ago since i went his place. pratically less than 5 times since we entered poly. had dinner with him at home, it was so surreal. the familiarity, warmth and all. his parents are still the same, as friendly as before. his younger brother is like almost one head taller than me now, taking his a levels this year. it was 10 years ago when we first met, time have passed. wish that time will go back in time to 1999/2000.


although we aren't that close anymore, i still feel very comfortable telling you everything. i'm glad i stayed for dinner and told you stuff that i didn't tell anyone face to face in my entire life. i feel better now though it can't be solved anytime soon.





love,
melvin

talking to ying jia triggers some thoughts. my mum just woke up. she is so cute. fortunate to have such a mum. hope i can remember the thoughts i have at night when i blog again. laters.

crap, i just realised i couldn't spell perhaps correctly for my entire life time. this totally sucks. perharps i should go to sleep now. screwed up again. good night.

Etiquette and image consultant Teo Ser Lee, 42, feels that women who expect men to pay during dates and escort them home safely are not being archaic, but simply being real.'These are basic social graces,' she says, adding that she expects her boyfriends to open car doors for her 'even though it is faster to open them myself'.'I consider myself a modern woman. I'd fight for a contract, tooth and nail. But when it comes to relationships, I will take the submissive role and let the man wear the pants.'

Oh, so this is what a man should do? I'd become a lady then. Why are social graces being 'formulated' in such a way? I wonder who come out with such things. To me, being submissive equates to enjoyment/relaxation, that applies to sex too. So in the end, the man is in the losing end. It's so difficult to be a man. Or i'm still such a immature bastard?

i used to have a little crush on teo ser lee when i was younger because she was pretty. now think i like mr teo ser luck more, he's younger, more handsome, cool and sexy. woohoo. *slurps*




Picture ripped off blinkymummy's blog entry "Villa Bali + MP + NoNameApplicable".