i dislike rain in the day.

i used the atm card for the 5th time since i got the on 20th feb. now 1/5 of my savings are gone. so cool. i knew this will happen but not so fast!

i don't know if i made the right choice. but this shoes i ordered will be the most costly one i have ever decide to buy on my own. it's cost exactly 1.6 as much as my current adidas now. wow. this better protect my knees well, not like the stupid street soccer one i've bought. crap.

i like carol in the channel 8 9pm show. she's uber cool. i wish i have such a girlfriend, so that i can show off in public but slap her at home because she's so arrogance/spoilt. but then again, i like spoilt girls in some ways. she's tall/smart/pretty/sexy. maybe even before i slap her, she already kick my balls. how cool is that? hahaha.

stupid. i can't think properly now.

i learnt not to be a hero anymore. my eyes are irritated, red and super dry. i also don't use soap to shower after every swim session. its so scary. i didn't know chlorine can do so much damage. i must hurry go buy a swimming gogle before the next swim session.

i was wondering why girls seem more matured than guys of the same age? is it because of their dressing that made them behave like a demure lady? in that case, their actions are deemed mature, but what about their thinking? then again, actions are done after the thought is processed. so it shows that they are matured?!

but maybe they don't know what they really know the rationale behind it so they just think that should be the way because that is how the society works, so they just follow. after that, even though they don't really know what is correct/wrong it is considered correct (based on society). so they are happy/satisfied with it?

but then why females can be satisfied over all the simple things yet gucci, prada can make them happy? they say it is a bonus, but every little thing counts. ah, so easy. just treat them like a princess then! but then treating them like a princess means it includes both the 'factor' mentioned.

confusing. i wonder anyone understand what i'm driving at.

i feel so empty, alone, bored yet again. played soccer in the rain yesterday. it was so much more relaxing playing with secondary school mates compared to my cousins and his friends. after that, went to his place. it was oens ago since i went his place. pratically less than 5 times since we entered poly. had dinner with him at home, it was so surreal. the familiarity, warmth and all. his parents are still the same, as friendly as before. his younger brother is like almost one head taller than me now, taking his a levels this year. it was 10 years ago when we first met, time have passed. wish that time will go back in time to 1999/2000.


although we aren't that close anymore, i still feel very comfortable telling you everything. i'm glad i stayed for dinner and told you stuff that i didn't tell anyone face to face in my entire life. i feel better now though it can't be solved anytime soon.





love,
melvin

talking to ying jia triggers some thoughts. my mum just woke up. she is so cute. fortunate to have such a mum. hope i can remember the thoughts i have at night when i blog again. laters.

crap, i just realised i couldn't spell perhaps correctly for my entire life time. this totally sucks. perharps i should go to sleep now. screwed up again. good night.

Etiquette and image consultant Teo Ser Lee, 42, feels that women who expect men to pay during dates and escort them home safely are not being archaic, but simply being real.'These are basic social graces,' she says, adding that she expects her boyfriends to open car doors for her 'even though it is faster to open them myself'.'I consider myself a modern woman. I'd fight for a contract, tooth and nail. But when it comes to relationships, I will take the submissive role and let the man wear the pants.'

Oh, so this is what a man should do? I'd become a lady then. Why are social graces being 'formulated' in such a way? I wonder who come out with such things. To me, being submissive equates to enjoyment/relaxation, that applies to sex too. So in the end, the man is in the losing end. It's so difficult to be a man. Or i'm still such a immature bastard?

i used to have a little crush on teo ser lee when i was younger because she was pretty. now think i like mr teo ser luck more, he's younger, more handsome, cool and sexy. woohoo. *slurps*




Picture ripped off blinkymummy's blog entry "Villa Bali + MP + NoNameApplicable".

please come to me soon latest by the end of this month....

the few things i learnt from the MOE seminar today..

'the world hate changes, yet it has brough us progress... ' - charles f. kettering.

interest does not equate abilities

what values do we want in our worplace?

"nothing you learnt is ever wasted, you can bring it forward to your next workplace or apply it in your life"

follow your heart

focus on your journey

do not settle for second best. go for the best. dare to dream.

i slept for almost 15 hours today and i didn't feel hungry at all. all i felt was sad, bored, lonely, useless. i wonder why. perharps its just because of yesterday. i hope it will go away soon. as i grow older, i feel more and more lonely and i'm beginning to dread it. i don't like staying at home using msn anymore neither do i like working. i think i'd rather go to school or run errands for my friends. i don't even feel like playing soccer later. hope tmr will come very soon so that i can go suntec city for the fair.

warning: verbal regurgitation.

yesterday was memorable. i think this is the first time i played soccer in the afternoon on my birthday the past 4 years. didn't keep track of the time, rushed back home then to plaza singapura to meet grace tan at 4pm. as usual, i was late and made the poor hungry girl wait about 20 mins, i'm so sorry.


initially, i felt kind of out of place when i met her , people might think she's going out with a kiddo... but i decided for quite long what to wear at home before ironing them. why i wore shorts was because i think i might have a waxing session so its easy and more comfortable. anyway, that's not the main point. i like her dressed this way, very pretty. i mean i feel so proud walking beside her. i'm sure people might think why this kiddo is with this girl. they are jealous! hahaha. i am winner! :)
digress abit... i also like evon's dressing.


then we head down to the cathay for breakfast/lunch. she bought mee sua while i bought french toast and a regular hot dog. seriously, it was difficult to decide what to eat. i'm so afraid i bought the wrong food. it's not that she won't eat it but its not her preferred choice then upset her again. i also felt bad when she went to buy mee sua but i guess it's ok for once if she wants to go and buy the food. i wanted to take a photo with her during lunch but i didn't dare. ok, i mean it can be kept as a memory even though we're not a real couple.

*yes the girl just signed in to msn. hahahaha. i am happy to finally see someone online.*

we went to check out the movies after our meal when she suggested 'ps i love you'. i'm like wow. is she serious?
i got even more serious by then and i already decided where to go for a romantic dinner but i've only heard about that place from many people, didn't know how to get there and if there's many different varities of food there.
went to the counter to check if they have this movie, but it started to screen for about almost 15 mins at 4.50pm. in my head i was thinking: 'i should have come to meet her earlier then can watch the movie together, i've missed once in a lifetime opportunity!'. in the end, she said to check out the other movies before i wanted to say: 'if you don't mind going in late , i can watch with you'.


went up to the cinema level and then 'fight' over : who should pay for ice lemon tea. i didn't know it was a plot when jiayi and evon was sitting together behaving intimately. they were like some caucasians/afghans sitting in the wrong seat! i did not take notice of them only when jiayi started laughing like a crazy girl la... so sickening! i felt so embarassed. but it's like my first time watching movie with only girls! very cool.


rachel bilson is very pretty! i read from a magazine few years ago when i was into O.C, she spent like $10,000 a year on her hair. although she is very petite, i prefer rachel bilson to misha barton. hayden christensen also damn handsome! HOT! i like his eyebrow and hairstyle. stylo milo.


after movie, we went to read blogs because i didn't know some other information and also kim wei started to .......... (sorry kim wei) before michelle came. on the way down the cathay, evon dragged me to STRIP-COED. i was like... is she serious? when i was almost so courageous to enter (secretly wanted to), she said need to make appointment. but i didn't know why i didn't figure that out at that point of time because i called them once and they told me the earliest appointment i could make was like 1 week later?!


took some pictures alone with every girl at the basement. then outside cathay, GERM took photos(i was the photographer), i have to admit i know nothing about photography. sucks at it. took some photos with them before walking towards plaza singapura alone wearing that hat. i thought it was fun because it could act as a social psychology experiment.


i so wanted to ask that rgs/rj netballer isabelle soh to wish me happy birthday but i guess she was with her boyfriend. she looks so much taller in person. its amazing how i knew she existed since 5 years ago through blogs, had a intense crush on her during sec 4 but never saw her once. wth.


managed to get a secondary school boy to wish me and another 21yrs old lady whose birthday fall on the same date and month (don't know how true is it though) to take a photo with me. woohoo! then we walked towards the park and had my birthday dinner.


i like the idea when i told xiaode that i just want it to be a simple and cheap affair when he claimed to sms the wrong person on his blog. apparantly, the presents weren't. i didn't expect two postsecret books! like perharps one postsecret, either stargirl or love, stargirl. i like all the presents very much.


i totally enjoyed the celebration, what matters most was for all of us to be happy. i know this is another transition of our life after graduation, some already know what we what, some are lost, some are worried, some had to do what they have promised, some just wished time would stop, some would.....


this year was very much different from last's year. i really appreciate it, the effort and all. i could feel it right away. i didn't talk much because i was admiring all of you that night. although i am not close with all of you and somtimes have different opinions, i'm glad to have meet all of you.






love,
melvin

PS: hmm, i feel like i'm jughead in the archie comics in this picture.

PPS: still owe G a double scoop green tea ice cream from Azabu Sabo Ice Cream Shop and rose(if she wants).

i was wondering if it is wrong to treat every single day the same? perharps it is due to the fact that i 'treasure' everyday. however some others might think that i should come out of my comfort zone and put in an effort for some occasions like b-day, v-day, christmas, anniversaries, etc. my future gf is so going to suffer.

i have alot to learn... especially how to love. i wish the lunar second month will come soon so that i can have that shoes and start to run to take things off my mind. need to learn how to use excel/access and fight with the programme for the next 2-3 months. god bless all.

thomas ong is fucking handsome with clothes on.

its not funny when you have no money. it sucks. getting married is not only just joint bank account, house, lives, overseas trip. happiness is but difficult to achieve because it will affect not only you but the people who are around you. i totally do not support the baby bonus policy that will not help in the other aspects except finance (even so, let's say its only for a max of 3 months?)

phoon yue chin is :D

it's always so bored the day before my birthday. i'm always alone. ah. now it rained, i can't go play soccer with random people. crap. wow. romantic date with grace tan tmr ah. like one day girlfriend. -.- so cool. wasting my life again or should i go queensway now to check out that asics running and lifestyle shoes. i need to start running.