warning: verbal regurgitation.

yesterday was memorable. i think this is the first time i played soccer in the afternoon on my birthday the past 4 years. didn't keep track of the time, rushed back home then to plaza singapura to meet grace tan at 4pm. as usual, i was late and made the poor hungry girl wait about 20 mins, i'm so sorry.


initially, i felt kind of out of place when i met her , people might think she's going out with a kiddo... but i decided for quite long what to wear at home before ironing them. why i wore shorts was because i think i might have a waxing session so its easy and more comfortable. anyway, that's not the main point. i like her dressed this way, very pretty. i mean i feel so proud walking beside her. i'm sure people might think why this kiddo is with this girl. they are jealous! hahaha. i am winner! :)
digress abit... i also like evon's dressing.


then we head down to the cathay for breakfast/lunch. she bought mee sua while i bought french toast and a regular hot dog. seriously, it was difficult to decide what to eat. i'm so afraid i bought the wrong food. it's not that she won't eat it but its not her preferred choice then upset her again. i also felt bad when she went to buy mee sua but i guess it's ok for once if she wants to go and buy the food. i wanted to take a photo with her during lunch but i didn't dare. ok, i mean it can be kept as a memory even though we're not a real couple.

*yes the girl just signed in to msn. hahahaha. i am happy to finally see someone online.*

we went to check out the movies after our meal when she suggested 'ps i love you'. i'm like wow. is she serious?
i got even more serious by then and i already decided where to go for a romantic dinner but i've only heard about that place from many people, didn't know how to get there and if there's many different varities of food there.
went to the counter to check if they have this movie, but it started to screen for about almost 15 mins at 4.50pm. in my head i was thinking: 'i should have come to meet her earlier then can watch the movie together, i've missed once in a lifetime opportunity!'. in the end, she said to check out the other movies before i wanted to say: 'if you don't mind going in late , i can watch with you'.


went up to the cinema level and then 'fight' over : who should pay for ice lemon tea. i didn't know it was a plot when jiayi and evon was sitting together behaving intimately. they were like some caucasians/afghans sitting in the wrong seat! i did not take notice of them only when jiayi started laughing like a crazy girl la... so sickening! i felt so embarassed. but it's like my first time watching movie with only girls! very cool.


rachel bilson is very pretty! i read from a magazine few years ago when i was into O.C, she spent like $10,000 a year on her hair. although she is very petite, i prefer rachel bilson to misha barton. hayden christensen also damn handsome! HOT! i like his eyebrow and hairstyle. stylo milo.


after movie, we went to read blogs because i didn't know some other information and also kim wei started to .......... (sorry kim wei) before michelle came. on the way down the cathay, evon dragged me to STRIP-COED. i was like... is she serious? when i was almost so courageous to enter (secretly wanted to), she said need to make appointment. but i didn't know why i didn't figure that out at that point of time because i called them once and they told me the earliest appointment i could make was like 1 week later?!


took some pictures alone with every girl at the basement. then outside cathay, GERM took photos(i was the photographer), i have to admit i know nothing about photography. sucks at it. took some photos with them before walking towards plaza singapura alone wearing that hat. i thought it was fun because it could act as a social psychology experiment.


i so wanted to ask that rgs/rj netballer isabelle soh to wish me happy birthday but i guess she was with her boyfriend. she looks so much taller in person. its amazing how i knew she existed since 5 years ago through blogs, had a intense crush on her during sec 4 but never saw her once. wth.


managed to get a secondary school boy to wish me and another 21yrs old lady whose birthday fall on the same date and month (don't know how true is it though) to take a photo with me. woohoo! then we walked towards the park and had my birthday dinner.


i like the idea when i told xiaode that i just want it to be a simple and cheap affair when he claimed to sms the wrong person on his blog. apparantly, the presents weren't. i didn't expect two postsecret books! like perharps one postsecret, either stargirl or love, stargirl. i like all the presents very much.


i totally enjoyed the celebration, what matters most was for all of us to be happy. i know this is another transition of our life after graduation, some already know what we what, some are lost, some are worried, some had to do what they have promised, some just wished time would stop, some would.....


this year was very much different from last's year. i really appreciate it, the effort and all. i could feel it right away. i didn't talk much because i was admiring all of you that night. although i am not close with all of you and somtimes have different opinions, i'm glad to have meet all of you.






love,
melvin

PS: hmm, i feel like i'm jughead in the archie comics in this picture.

PPS: still owe G a double scoop green tea ice cream from Azabu Sabo Ice Cream Shop and rose(if she wants).

i was wondering if it is wrong to treat every single day the same? perharps it is due to the fact that i 'treasure' everyday. however some others might think that i should come out of my comfort zone and put in an effort for some occasions like b-day, v-day, christmas, anniversaries, etc. my future gf is so going to suffer.

i have alot to learn... especially how to love. i wish the lunar second month will come soon so that i can have that shoes and start to run to take things off my mind. need to learn how to use excel/access and fight with the programme for the next 2-3 months. god bless all.

thomas ong is fucking handsome with clothes on.

its not funny when you have no money. it sucks. getting married is not only just joint bank account, house, lives, overseas trip. happiness is but difficult to achieve because it will affect not only you but the people who are around you. i totally do not support the baby bonus policy that will not help in the other aspects except finance (even so, let's say its only for a max of 3 months?)

phoon yue chin is :D

it's always so bored the day before my birthday. i'm always alone. ah. now it rained, i can't go play soccer with random people. crap. wow. romantic date with grace tan tmr ah. like one day girlfriend. -.- so cool. wasting my life again or should i go queensway now to check out that asics running and lifestyle shoes. i need to start running.

i've always been dismantling all my spoilt shoes and keep those 'technologies' and soles. it is one of secret ambitions to work for nike(not sales assistant! though it won't hurt if i have to be one). imagine overseeing all the shoes technology processes, working in their headquarters(its very very big and beautiful), coming up with my own shoes (not design though) and not forgetting how the business management/strategies/marketing/branding/etc works. damn cool!

the female model for nike women looks like the same person for the nokia adveristment on msn messenger. she's really beautiful and takes my breath away when i look at her wearing nike women products. i'd agree without her, the products might not look so nice. another marketing strategy. wahahahha. :) seriously, wanting to work for nike has got nothing to do with her!

ah. if i can be like her(the male version)... how good it will be.... she's not jessica alba, but still very attractive. to me, she's probably more attractive than jessica alba right now. funny annit? i don't know what i'm thinking too.

blinkymummy is very *thumbs up*. =)))

tee shirt
swimming goggles
boxer/boxer brief
short sleeve shirt
boyzilian/legs waxing session
any edition of postsecret book
stargirl by jerry spinelli
love, stargirl by jerry spinelli
socks for street soccer/running
white asics/onitsuka tiger lifestyle shoes
tioman/phuket

chin wei is my stress buster. thinking of him is gay, but his antics is so funny!

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love, but it came too soon

And there was me and you and then we got real glued
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule?

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

La, la, la,
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la,
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever


this song never fails to crank me up. existed since pri sch. damn cool.

throughout the past few years, i finally feel that i was ready to give up my selfcentredness for once. but now, it's gone when i was randomly reading blogs and chanced upon it. is it worth investing emotion in it?

on the other hand, i'm wondering how can i treat my friends better when i treat my family like that? why everything come at the wrong time? it's definitely not going to be easy. maybe god wants me to learn from it and be a better person.

my mum is the greatest for her unconditional love towards her children. she's strong. i hope to follow her in future. but that means she is not treating herself well and i really hate it. i don't know what beholds in the future but i pray hard that she will be strong and healthy; i will be filial and have the capability to take care of her. that applies to my dad too. relations are getting better, but not financial.

so i don't know. i can't really get to sleep well because of fyp and my height. waking up every other hour. i'm so tired and hope i won't screw up the 3 slides for presentation later. god bless all.

i've never thought it would come so fast. i'm beginning to miss school even before i graduate. i thought i shouldn't feel this way, at least not for now. sigh. i can't really do my work now. tired.

i'm always so high when i read about sports. so cool. so pretty, so smart, so tall. :)

and i hope to reach the same level of attitude/thinking as my mum on perspectives of life and the world. it's kind of amazing talking to her for 2 hours enlightening me. i'm too worldly, academics is not everything.

wow wow wow. when i enter uni, most of the female counterparts will be younger than me. that feels weird. female seniors are so cool and sweet! wow. i think peggy soon (female winner of hey gorgeous) is a sociology undergrad. damn cool. today was a good until i paid for the shoes... oh man, school work is piling up again.

isn't she pretty?

things are on my mind and i cant get to sleep. i miss the times i chase 孫燕姿.

is it worth all the effort? what if you're like huang kaida in the golden path? everything will go down to drain even when its not your fault? is that considered your fate?

do you want to just work hard and believe that you will succeed one day without realising how itf feels to just let go of the baggage or do you just to live for the moment and learn from the mistakes you have made spurring you to greater heights in future?

work hard or work smart?

live for the moment or believe all your life?

phoon yue chin or huang kai da?

what is the right balance?

it sucks to be sick at the wrong time. i totally cannot concentrate. like living dead. eye candy was no where to be seen today. guess wont get to see her till next week. totally not contributing to my recovery.

ms excel makes me mad. i can do the calculation faster with a calculator manually. it sucks. i feel like burning the whole computer now. i wonder which idioit introduced excel. f it.

kelly just msn-ed me. it doesnt seem like she's been gone for 5 months. time flies. all of us are growing up so fast. too fast for my liking. it means that i'm graduating soon (no more schoolwork), a fresh start. but that also means i must be independent, hopefully i can get to do what i want. i just realised i wasted the last 6 years of my life. it sucks.

i so feel like i should meet phoon yue chin now as i'm reading her blog. she's so cool and smart.

i need a pair of lifestyle shoes and another pair of street soccer shoes. i want a pair of asics running shoes. no money no talk. got money talk rot. sigh.

i hate imperfections. i really do. things that are done should be perfect, nothing less than that. it sucks when i know i can do better after i look back at the things i've done, it still can be re-done but it just doesn't only involve me. it makes me not able to sleep well. being or doing things alone is still the best.

out of our own good, people are trying to impart all of their knowledge to us. but they did not realised that there are more bad than good by screwing us up. or is this how the society works? if it is, i think i'm kinda of screwed up because i still can't handle it. there are so few people who are truly working only for themselves. wonder what good there is after living for almost two decades.

i feel terribly fucked and screwed now.

felicia chin makes me HAPPY! i love her. i want to marry her. i can be her slave forever. woo. she is love. omg, it seems that all girls are pretty right now. crazy. i think is might be due to the lack of sleep. it's ice cream time!!! :D

singapore swimmers are way cute. hahaha.

i was beaming and hyperventilating like 1 minute ago. *big grin*

this might be damn gay. but then i suddenly miss chin wei's antics(his dancing hand movements)but yes i did not forget about kim wei and xiao de as well, just that chin wei cranks me up more. felicia chin and joanne peh makes me high. avril rocks my socks. i'm like girlcrazy at this moment. every girl seems pretty to me yesterday. wow, and kelly is talking to me on msn now. damn cool. it's so late in us now and she's not asleep. bad girl! happy nathan.

my mummy is so adorable at times. :)

listening to if we hold on together by diana ross:

makes me miss al and sw.
makes me miss those times when i was younger.
reminds me of a 14yrs old girl who run 5km in 23mins+ , 10km in 48mins when i just got over it at about 11+pm and now i can't really get back to study.
makes me feel that i'm so lost as i do not know what i really want because i want to achieve so many things.

somehow i'm glad i'm getting used to not playing soccer since 1month ago and exercise by only running, which is the stepping stone for me to embark on an overseas journey on my own. but i just keep looking at record times of athletes, which is a start of another bad thing.

youth and innocence are gone. i've let it pass me by.

i suddenly felt so lonely for a moment when i woke up. christmas is coming. one of my ideals is to be in a house downtown with my secondary 2/6 friends. there should be at least a fireplace, cabled tv and hi-fi or music player with lots of snow outside the pathway of whichever european country or america.

i've learnt that if one do not have the financial capability to start a family (in my opinion, at least $25,000 and a stable career that you are passionate about), please do not even think of it no matter how much you love to have a child. being nagged by your parents to give them a grandchild to hug or cure their boredom is an invalid reason too. you will only make your child suffer. you can make love 10times a day for 365days, just take the necessary precautions. now i don't really have the mood to do work now. it's a fucking 5% and i'm spoiling my damn health.

this week postsecret's secrets are damn good. check it out.

http://postsecret.com

every small decisions i made in the past might probably leave me with lifetime of regrets or at least the past 4 years.

looking at how those poly students play catching at the taekwando area behind the swimming pool made me realised that i've been stupid to think that all these games are childish. these are the simple pleasures in life when you are with a group of good friends.

killed a fucking army of ants.

i'm still a damn angsty teen right now.

you fucking work till you die.

bye.

24 hours a day isn't enough. i need another 4 more hours. this f-ing sucks.

i wonder if the work is screwing me up or i'm screwing myself up. this sucks. i hate it when i don't get enough slp. i can't freaking grow any taller. i can't exercise when i do not enough as i might die of exhaustion. if i were to join the osama gang, i would ......

evon was attractive today. i don't know why but i'm serious. perharps its because i didn't get to see her like more than 5 days. so absence make the heart fonder?

choice.

always look forward.

try, even if i fail at least i've tried (though it might suck but its better than nothing, its definitely not a waste of time)

be true.

always seek for improvement (but how can it be defined?)

but f projects.

it would be love if it's winter now. and i'm in a house with a fireplace, chimney with lots of snow outside the pathway downtown of whichever ang moh country. and then i'm listening to coldplay's trouble with ten thousand million jellybeans and wine with turkey, bacon, and a soulmate.

love is:















this is not love but sexy/lust.

i'm talking to girls right now. and i dun know if i should tell them what i told them. but anyway, it's been done and it's like what i wanted to say.

actually, i'm kind of looking forward to NS. it's another changing point. perharps it can change me. i want to travel around the world, working or alone or with friends that i feel really comfortable and won't get bored and can talk about anything under the sun including sex or secrets or whatever that is a taboo. but if this were to happen, i need to get soccer out of my system, have other ways to exercise/keep fit and also that means leaving my family in singapore.

ok it seems that i changed alot but i guess that's me. i don't know if thats being open but i know i'm not handsome or pretty or rich or whatever you call it. i'm just another person in this world.

ok, i bet this is scaring people. but i'm still a fucking superficial person right now.

seriously, i think i'm a little jealous that yingjia and grace can go stone. it makes me feel sad. being together with a group of people and do what you want especially in the nature is love. well, i dunno.

i just regret not joining a cca. i should have sign up during orientation because i can remember the senior at the booth is so attractive, who cares if it's on a friday. i'm freaking lifeless now. soccer getting sucky as it's getting very difficult for me to improve. i'm stagnant. it's freakin 1.12am now. sigh.

freaking cool. but i only do that once a week now.

Study: Soccer beats jogging for fitness
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070921/ap_on_he_me/fitness_soccer_vs_jogging;_ylt=AgH4Mp5Sm9bZOrSRz9g800m9j7AB
Diet Change Can Curb Fatty Liver Diesease
http://news.yahoo.com/s/hsn/20070922/hl_hsn/dietchangecancurbfattyliverdisease;_ylt=Akfs3rK2IdnDnkAO60dxXHVa24cA

So, stop eating rice or bread. eat vegetables the whole day.

i totally hate these two days except 12-5pm yesterday. tmr might suck a million time. f.

he's a super handsome boy in red. if i can make out with him. wow!

look at his thighs! damn sexy (and gross to some). he's got super nice face features but he doesn't have super nice abs.

he can't get the ball and want to knock the stupid dumb lookalike kiddo player's head with a smack on his bloody face.

i wonder if i change my sex, will i get into the female soccer team. all her stats are the same as mine except the birthdate. damn. freaking sad.

even sex doesn't interest me right now. this sucks. i feel like getting out of singapore for 1 month to go travelling around a few countries like florida, liverpool, milan and some countryside ah. amsterdam, holland! but with lots of money and someone who i feel comfortbale with to do crazy stuff! oh man. the thought of it makes me so high! woohoo.

i'm so frekaing bored now. i think making out with hilary duff might be fun because she is older than me, rich and mature... and her birthday is in 6days time. so coool. i don't know what the lizzie mcguire movie is all about.

now i know why doing data entry isn't fun at all after a while. it gets very tough and fun at the beginning trying to figure it out. but sometimes it takes too long and it annoys everyone. but when you're about 1/5 done , it gets so tiring and taxing on the eyes. oh man and it's boring esp when there's no music. lucky for me i'm not really a music addict. wth.

btw, i was like surrounded by female working adults on the bus this morning. they're so matured, indepedent, sexy, feminine, smart, street-wise, fashionable, etc. but there isn't any hot guy today. :(

i saw this girl sitting at the 2nd row from the right. she got super long hair like yingjia i think. i only know she wore white and i got a feeling she's from SMU though i couldn't see anything else! after i alight the bus, she know i'm looking for her and she look back at me thru that window!! i hope i can see her again later. wow. way cool! watching channelnewsasia on the bus 153 when there's suzanne jung in the morning makes me happy too.

it's very fun.. how people do/act/think/dress/practice in this corporate world.

somtimes its so fun observing on the bus esp when people look at you then u look back at them and it just continues... mind games. i like! but sometimes i still lose to some people. there's so much more to observe esp the small details when the bus is super crowded in the morning. but i'm so freaking tired and my stomach hurts every morning.

i wanna go waxing. like who want to sponsor me? crap. it's freakingly nathanly 12.05am again. good night.

i am wondering if felicia chin like boys who are younger than her.

she is so sweeet. it's driving me crazy. i just can't sleep. i'm too excited and i'm in too deep. oh oh crazy, but it feels alright.... so damn tired but my damn hair haven't dry. later spoil mood then can't slp. freaking nathan.

sometimes i get jealous too easily, this sucks big time. now i wonder being alone might be still the best. u don't have to act happy if you're not happy to entertain anyone worried that you might affect them... so kill all those with many friends. follow the osama way. way so cool.


playing with pda was kind of fun.










crap. it's freaking 12am now.

i kind of like this quote from blackjetta (if i'm not wrong).

life is like a dick, fuck it when it is hard.

he's fucking hot!

how he looked like 11 years ago.

why isn't he mine?

i'm beginning to dislike girls who run faster than me. i hope they will get cramp during the race. damn it.

freaking boring day. who would want to sponsor me $200?

ivy lee is still so hot at her age as a mother of two.

the purpose of this post is to tell... i haven't sleep just yet. i just finish my dinner and breakfast but i'm still hungry. not being able to sleep throughout the night though i'm still fucking tired is a secret. i won't tell anyone the whole truth.

in real life, only one person knows why but i doubt she knows she is the only one who knows it too. it's neither grace tan nor gan jia yi. well even if people are interested i will not tell them. some will say so why the fuck do i post it up if i do not want attention. i just want to rant and this is not to entertain anyone but myself. so fuck it. i'm being damn gl now. i can heard the first bus approaching the bus stop now. i shall sleep before it irritates the hell out of me. bye.

PS: to 2/6 peeps... sorry about not writing about us at all. i doubt u all know about any single thing i wrote in here but some things doesn't need to be told to be understood. :)

right now i really have to urget to meet the owner of blackjetta.blogspot: phoon yue chin.

ying jia made me high yesterday when she came over. we managed to have lunch together but not go home together. grace kwan was cute yesterday, but even cuter on wednesday. like she call me! sometimes grace kwan is like so cute. wow. hahahaha.

i'm now regretting staying at home because its boring and i cant continue sleeping if not i will not be able to sleep later. i'm still damn tired. freak. it's so dumb that i stand on the bus for 1.5hrs because the stupid highway jam. piss me off. fuck.

i don't feel like updating anymore. it's kind of meaningless.

fuck.

working sucks. i miss watching my favourite gangster girl! ah, soon . it will be thomas ong. my all time fav actor of all times. the 1st actor i ever liked in my life too. damn damn damng. he's so damn hot for his age. sexy.

screwed up. if work starts at 9am and ends at 5.30pm, how good will that be.

i haven't been watching LOST for a few episodes and now i'm totally lost on what is going on. sigh. internship,log,reports and presentations.... and i realised this is so sweet (look below)...









it's the couple is so sweet and sexy. ah. damn it. i'm jealous.
who wanna buy me the whole collection of the LOST series?

singtel HOT 100! pre-paid card or continue this stupid m1 plan?

the thought of entering the office makes me sad, i hope today will never end. yucks.

work was fun! yeah! :)

but i have a diseased face now. 12 pimples on my left side of neck, 1 at the chin, 3 on the right side of neck, 7 on the left cheek, 5 on the right cheek, 4 on the right jaw. sigh...

erm, i learn not to anyhow download adobe reader updates from any websites other than the offcial one.... and not to click on sexy girl picture unless it's felicia chin or joanne peh or jessica alba. friendster!!!! ahhhhh. 11 threats found but deleted. norton sucks, avg is better.

oh yes, on the way back home. there's this girl with a group of friends looked at me. i have a common look. she asked her friends if i look like one of their friend else. ahhhhh, so sad. but then i should have smile at her when she look at me. maybe can score points.

i secretly notice that she keep trying to peep at me. i think i look like the guy she's fond of. hahahha. luckily, its at night and she cant see how ugly i am if not it will be a super turn off. and i'm so sure they're from hip hop by the way they dress and stuff they talking about. damn cool. like since 5 years ago, no girls ever look at me like that. woohoo. high. ok, not very high but yes contented.

ratatouille is a very nice movie. must watch. the mouse is so damn cute. but it always scare me when the imaginary chef suddenly with that scary noise effect. i so pai seh when my seat shook. i guess the couple esp the girl i must be a freaking chicken gay coward.

i did not play soccer or run this week but disgusting spent lots of money. health and wealth going down. yucks.

I can log into my account but when i go jiayi's one. then i can't send her testimonial. and see the pic properly. why is is not http://friendster.com but http://alotofvagina.friendster.com. does friendster have virus too?!





proness. winner. now it piss me off a little cos i can't do what i want although i face the computer for more than 6hrs a day without internet access. boring. and i'm tired. less than 6hrs of sleep again. sigh. it sucks but today i did learn something. it's so scary. even meeting nathan is not as frightening. i miss my sec sch friends and classmates!

jy, your testimonial: the word is not nathan. it's nice. and i meant it, but i just want to play. anyway, i can't wait for weekends too. it's two more days! like after tmr is one day!!!!!! so cool. but then sat, i'm like meeting my sec sch friends in the evening. =x


good night world.

i regretted not buying the brown and navy blue pull and bear polo tee during the sale. ahhhhhhh. like so damn cheap. $19.90. sigh. and it's the color i want if i need to wear one to work/ go out. nathan. now that i showered i can't sleep just yet. ahhhh. freaking. no more gel on the hair.

i miss studying. crap. internship really sucks like shit. waste time, money and health only. i couldn't think properly and almost fell asleep. i'm feeling so freaking fat yet tired now. how to play soccer on wednesday anymore. sigh.

woohoo. that sms from evon was a very sweet gesture. what a good start to the day! :)

i'm a freaking lousy useless mummy's boy/son. please let nothing happen tonight and let me sleep in peace.

postsecret rocks my socks.

http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_a7jkcMVp5Vg/RtC9etTLnZI/AAAAAAAABgk/kvcc__cBT5E/s1600-h/losing.jpg

ah. i dislike attachment. it's making me irritated. stupid. i think i will be so tired tommorrow and i might be late. i feel like freaking someone upside down inside out like banana, papaya, alibaba and aninak. sigh. i still dunno what to wear/iron the clothes. so uncool like nathan.

now i seriously need to get freaking drunk so that i can get to sleep.
human are selfish. no one is noble, not even your partner. fairytales doesn't come true, kiss korean videoclip is produced just to cater to the audience.
money is so evil. if barter trade were to exist again. sigh.
dysfunctional.

ann siao is so cool because she can put me to sleep. 100m in 13sec. so pro. oh yes, but i doubt i can sleep. something bad is going to happen again. god bless.

alcohol is bad. hahaha. i'm so freaking hungry after i drink alcohol. i wonder why. oh man, abit screw up my regime i just started on tuesday. it was kind of an eye opener. i didn't know club was so small. and i can't dance for nuts. my first time with poly classmates. it doesn't really excite me at all , i think cos i don't know how to dance. that's why.

oh yes, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to make you fall. i swear i wasn't drunk at that time. i just didn't know that will happen. hope you're alright. very sorry! i just wonder what will happen if milk mix with alcohol. will it slow down the absorbtion rate of alcohol. ahhhh. still so freaking hungry. oh ya, please tell me when i was drunk/going to get drunk. i want to know. i need to know how it feels to be drunk. so i can be better. :)

and also, i realised we didn't take many pictures. like i never talk picture with everyone there individually. so sad. :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x0Y1Wk2wr74

this video makes me high. maldini speaking in english!!!!!!! omg! so damn charming. and kaka is so friggin cute when he smiles. he's such a cutie. it's like felicia chin together with joanne peh. wow.

joanne peh is my favourite gangster girl!
she can hit me, stab me, kick me. damn cool. i won't mind. hahahahaha. :)

soccer was good today. i realised i'm not as good as i think. i still have alot to learn. but i was pissed off with the 132 bus. i waited for 23mins for it to come at 7.40, which i didn't expect because this is the freaking bus i always take. there's no difference whether i left the house at 7pm or 7.25pm, still reach there at 8. argh. lucky there were other teams, if not i feel bad.

screw singtel broadband.

i have the sudden urge to meet the owner of blackjetta.blogspot.com; miss phoon yue chin.

i'm so tired right now but i can't get to sleep, i feel like drinking vodka or alcohol and get fucking drunk. get a hangover for the entire day tommorow since i do not know what to do and when i've recovered in the evening, i'll just go play soccer with my cousin. this feeling sucks.

i'm sorry for dissing anyone of you just now. i was just tired. pardon me. please don't treat me so well because i will take anyone for granted. i don't really feel comfortable when people treat me so well except my mum. i admit i like being treated well it's is kind of scary at the same time. i dunno.

i think i was trying to find an excuse to convince myself that it's alright that if i don't do well for this module. god bless.

oh yes, great. i guess that's it. someone flared up. but i guess the other party is trying to keep it down because of me. but don't they know i've already woke up and i can't think properly now? i need some drug to make me high.

i'm already so screwed up. i totally can't absorb things into my head alr, just trying to get 2hrs sleep yet they still want to discuss so loudly. this discuss shouldn't have taken place because whatever being said is invalid. there is no point in talking so damn loudly when nothing has been done for the past year. it affects me. or i should be glad they aren't shoutly like nobody's business? now i am wondering how is catalina. they've quietened down, i don't know if i should go back to sleep. so damn tired, but if i overslept. that's it. god bless me.

i watch channelnewsasia primetime morning because of suzanne jung. her face is so cute! :)

sat evening was fun. finally got to see chee heng and gang after 1 month. soccer wasn't that good cos it was raining. a few of my friends got ligament injury. it's scary because i'm feeling something wrong with my knees too. i don't want to not play soccer before i reach 35.

sat night was super fun. but i think i might be spoilsport throughout the entire night. ahhhhh. crazy nathan. i dunno why i did what i do.

Dear Melvin,
Here is your horoscope for Sunday, August 19:
You're having a hard time making up your mind, and that could lead to all sorts of minor, and possibly funny, romantic troubles. Don't force yourself, because you'll end up regretting any hard choices you make.

this might be good to convince me for what i did... i like you guys for being my friends. ok, no love because i never love anyone before but you all know what i mean...

maternal grandma's birthday yesterday. finally i got took a complete family photo for dunno since how many years ago. i also took one photo alone with my grandma and some other pictures with my cousins which i always wanted since eons.

oh man, i'm feeling lethargic again but i slept at 10.30pm yesterday and i didn't watch lost. :(

i got wasted by surfing friendster thru' out the night. friendster is so powerful, it can make people feel bad/useless. just hope what i do now will benefit me in future, unless i go blind or get knocked down by some vehicle or become handicapped. living by faith but not by sight is so difficult.

This is the church beside the vietnam orphanage. It was kind of scary when i want there alone secretly in the evening. It's always so quiet and locked up by 7pm. It's quite big and the 3 buildings were connected and there was only one guy looking after the church. There were dogs too. If i remembered correctly, there was like a tombstone (a stone that was engraved). Near the 'tombstone' was an sheltered open space which was around the size of our school street soccer court.







isn't it weird that there is some buddhist stuff at the left hand corner of the entrace?



oh no, now i can't get to sleep now! i feel creepy. i'm scared. i just keep thinking how i walked around and suddenly that guy approached me. he asked me to walk around myself and left me alone. i need someone to protect me. maybe like paris hilton or evangeline lilly or jesseca liu or kate beckinsale or i dunno.

i was wondering what will happen if i get prostate cancer?

drinking whole milk increases the risk of getting it. oh man. i've have already drunk almost more than 10x5x 4x 12 cups of milk in my entire life. crap.

this family let me learn alot, but also make my faith waver. it will be good if i can truly learn from all this, and i might be on my way to becoming someone famous like those sucessful people. but i can't really be bothered or get vexed about it from the bottom of my heart. that's something weird. maybe i'm already 'numb' to it. if i were to really learn from it, it must be from the bottom of my heart. i need more of such experience. human are interesting.

michelle wie and maria sharapova makes me happy and sad. they're so young yet so rich. and they are so much taller than me. sexy.

oh yes, elvin ng is damn hot too.

singtel broadband is pissing me off. it tells you to reboot your system almost every single day when IE doesn't display anything. wth is that? freaking nathan. i'm not what you as good as what all of you think.

i was looking at the mum but the daughter caught my attention immediately.



so cute, but i have bad camera. i was wondering why the mum dress so nice, but the dad....



some anonymous guy wearing nice bathing ape shoes when i was waiting for bus opposite chinatown point



boring. i was playing with my pimples.



woohoo! nice. i think i should go to operating theatre to see how they operate on humans. might be fun. like jack shephard! but sawyer gets to hug kate.

reading felicia chin's blog made me realised i take my parents for granted in everything they do for us. i do not cherish my time with them. sometimes i find them irritating. i don't know. i think they should take a little break, don't be to hard on themselves and provide everything for us. i don't know, it's just my brain. but my heart doesn't ache. weird.

i think i need an ipod.