erm, my leg is very itchy now. i don't know if it is the effects of brushing against the sea urchins. my whole right feet is like full of mosquitoes bites, 13 of them and some rashes. but i know it's not because i wore socks the whole day. i hope i won't die of the poisoning.

thanks for the treat. i feel excited sitting in the car. as i was in the car, i was feeling calmed and happy for the both of you as i was visionalising both of you in the tgt in future before i fell asleep and drop my phone. hahaha. it's time to sleep and report sick for my itching leg tomorrow.

if anybody wants to go diving or learn diving, i won't mind joining them going for the diving. but i need time to save up first. oh evon is so sexy, xd is so street-smart, jason is so meticulous. you get to know the other side of the rest on such trip.

there's so many things i wanna do. if i have the talent to sing live like sara wee.. wow.

hope i wont die of heart attack one day cos of lack of slp. night!

need to dive more often and practice my buoyancy because i still cant stay underwater, not above water. my mum seems very surprised when i tell her that i have difficulty staying in water rather than floating up.

this trip made me realised i have a long way to go. i've got alot of things to learn. and i'm kinda confused. i need to be more indepedent. so if one day my mum reads my blog, i hope she will stop doing everything and let me suffer alot to learn.

i saw an example of two good friends though both of them seems to quarrel all the time. i feel happy when i see the both of them like that. its so nice and simple. xd was v good, at least to me cos he saved me so many times and i'm not his main responsibility. his buddy is evon. that's what friends are for. jason was very accomodating especially when i was behaving like a girl. thank you.

sorry for knocking and kicking everybody so many times. when they surface up, i dont know if they are angry or tired and i cant seem to relax.

another 101 reason not to get into a r/s now cos i cant even take care of myself. when i try to help, i'm creating more trouble and feel as if i'm an attention whore. wow.

i've got not much to share cos second half the time while the rest was touching the sea animals, i was struggling to sink down. -.-

god bless all.

it's so weird i don't feel excited at all. why?

i just read an article about angelina jolie cutting herself cos she dont feel emotionally connection to anyone. i'm feeling the same way.

i am screwed. watching cruel temptations always leave me feeling very tight in my chest i dont know why. i tear but i cant never seem to cry. sometimes i feel the tears in my eyes are forced out or i still can feel for others. i dont know if i'm fake or real.

god bless all.

wow. justin biber looks kinda cute for his age. i bet girls all over the world is swooning over him. his voice is mesmerising... like a baby. too bad we're of same gender. if not....

it seems like i've lost track of the lastest music since oens, time to keep up with the lastest music.

lazy and tired to read the book which i didnt read for two weeks. hope i can pass the test though i was told it answers can be copied (must copy from right person).

feel like sleeping now but i'm listening to 98.7fm. it feel so good to listen to radio and i'm beginning to like desiree lai though i haven't listen to her dj before.. so cool i wanna be a deejay now.

i respect all the other young stars espcially miley cyrus. so young yet so talented and mature. vocal trainer on american idol. oh miley, will you marry me?
:D

driving tmr, it's kinda depressing i'm stuck at vertical parking and i dunno how to do directional change anymore at lesson 16. sad case. :(

some called me to call them and then try to exaggerate things by making it as if it is so important or difficult but in actual fact it is not..

now i know why am i so stupid but i've lost all the common sense or the ability to think because whatever others said are "common sense" and they try to confuse me and trick me.

dear god, please discharge me from the army soooon and help to relief some pain from my grandma. i hope my parents wont be like her when they're older.

i always agree on something before i realise that i'm being taken advantage of especially duty. this is the army. army mates will say how much they cover my ass just because they talk well while i always keep my mouth shut and do the work. the way they talk to superior is as if they are their friend. i still draw a very clear line between superior, friend and army mate. maybe i shldn't do so to make my life easier.

wake my bloddy idea up and being to vain is of no use. somethings are best to be left natural. i feel too perfect in some areas now. i think my mum is disappointed with me and wonder why she have such a son who doesnt behave like a man.

all i am now is because of what i have done to myself and i wish i can turn back the time.

please dont laugh at me when you see me the next two months. i hope everything will be ok. on a sidenote, even though it looks weird but i'm glad it grew back. please dont treat me like a freak if you see me in trunks.

i hope it doesnt rain heavily this fri to monday.

god bless all.

i want to update seomthing but i gotta go for my driving leson now hopefully i can remmeber what i wanna write in the next entry. i cant wait to get out of the army and i hate it i wish i dont ever step into any military camp anymore after this. sigh.

if i'm going to have chronic ankle pain or arthritis . i'm going to curse and swear at all the doctors who have diagnose me before. i'm going to hate all of them forever especially the army. gdi.

listening to 98.7FM on the computer makes me happy. wow. i feel young like during lower secondary school days which i love. and 98.7fm djs are so cool. i miss jamie yeo and carrie chong.

fearless by taylor swift makes me super happy. yeah.

my moood is being lifted now but i can only use my sis's laptop till 10pm.

i bought something that i kinda regretted and that sum of money can be put to better use like buying a pair of nike cross training shoes on sale now. i always buy things that i kind of regret except for footwear and my green hooded sweater.

it's weird how i can lend double of this amount of money to people and dont feel as sad compared to the thing i bought when they dont bother returning it back to me. but i will never ever trust this person again.

i need to seek help. lots of it. moleskine or not? to write what i feel/think on the bus which i can't recall any single thing now.

this week is kind of a good week because those kids dont have to go school. so bus is less crowded.

bye before i get super tired (which i am already lack of slp)

so much things to say but don't know who will really care abt everything. anyway, it's mostly complains. few more months and life might change. hopefully for the better and i will be able to adapt to it cos i' ma stubborn mule. working from the stratch again. money is f-ing important, so is appearance, fitness and health.

somethings in life, you must try to let things fade and find something new to replace it and bring you to the next level. i think all business think this way, isn't it? i still need to learn to be more flexible. army mates are not colleagues, they can be friend. i'm taking a small step this sat though that is not the life i would want to lead.

the song on grace's blog is very soothing.

why no one have faith in making sports as a career?

i am not a person who diversify, i focus on one thing and this is not enough to ensure survival in this world now. it sucks. everyone is so multi-talented.


god bless all.