i can't control the urge to type. hence, there's this entry.

i can't differentiate what is feel and think. 'm

and no, it's not emo. i still can't imagine what's going to happen next if i do change. and in some ways i'm comfortable with what i have now though i claim its not enough cos i want more. i want to try many things. i wanna hit rock bottom but afraid that i cant get up. or neither do i want to be 'traumatised' my whole life. awnt to be there for everyone, but i knwo i'm not that selfless enough to die for anyone. ok, running late. gtg before i get punished.