i think i wanna meet siewping and yue chin and blinkymummy.

think that arm_ will help to change me , but i get more confused than ever. i'm not sure if its arm_ that make me miss m_ friends (fake illusion), or i reall_ do care for friends now (real). but part of me/heart tells me i do reall_ care, juz that i don't know how to express it. wonder if an_one felt the difference.

feels like life is restarting now, onl_ that i'm 20. got to learn about lots of basic humane stuff again because i've lost it since man_ _ears ago doing something i didn't know that i'll want to pursue now that won't probabl_ happen.
dreams, realit_.

if i've got a chance to have an hour with:
mother theresa,
paolo maldini(faithful longest serving pla_er in the same club),
robbie fowler (m_ fav pla_er who isn't doing well now),
kaka(injured his spine at 18 and now is a world famous pla_er),
gwen stefani (faithful respectable lad_ who is so forgiving and have her own st_le) ,
louis koo(criminal turn actor),

ok, crap, i don't know do i reall_ respect e most in this world. ma_be m_ parents? how ironic.

what is more important? all jumbled up. mone_, appearance, character, personalit_, mental, ph_sical, happiness.......,

faith. god bless all.