i slept for almost 15 hours today and i didn't feel hungry at all. all i felt was sad, bored, lonely, useless. i wonder why. perharps its just because of yesterday. i hope it will go away soon. as i grow older, i feel more and more lonely and i'm beginning to dread it. i don't like staying at home using msn anymore neither do i like working. i think i'd rather go to school or run errands for my friends. i don't even feel like playing soccer later. hope tmr will come very soon so that i can go suntec city for the fair.

warning: verbal regurgitation.

yesterday was memorable. i think this is the first time i played soccer in the afternoon on my birthday the past 4 years. didn't keep track of the time, rushed back home then to plaza singapura to meet grace tan at 4pm. as usual, i was late and made the poor hungry girl wait about 20 mins, i'm so sorry.


initially, i felt kind of out of place when i met her , people might think she's going out with a kiddo... but i decided for quite long what to wear at home before ironing them. why i wore shorts was because i think i might have a waxing session so its easy and more comfortable. anyway, that's not the main point. i like her dressed this way, very pretty. i mean i feel so proud walking beside her. i'm sure people might think why this kiddo is with this girl. they are jealous! hahaha. i am winner! :)
digress abit... i also like evon's dressing.


then we head down to the cathay for breakfast/lunch. she bought mee sua while i bought french toast and a regular hot dog. seriously, it was difficult to decide what to eat. i'm so afraid i bought the wrong food. it's not that she won't eat it but its not her preferred choice then upset her again. i also felt bad when she went to buy mee sua but i guess it's ok for once if she wants to go and buy the food. i wanted to take a photo with her during lunch but i didn't dare. ok, i mean it can be kept as a memory even though we're not a real couple.

*yes the girl just signed in to msn. hahahaha. i am happy to finally see someone online.*

we went to check out the movies after our meal when she suggested 'ps i love you'. i'm like wow. is she serious?
i got even more serious by then and i already decided where to go for a romantic dinner but i've only heard about that place from many people, didn't know how to get there and if there's many different varities of food there.
went to the counter to check if they have this movie, but it started to screen for about almost 15 mins at 4.50pm. in my head i was thinking: 'i should have come to meet her earlier then can watch the movie together, i've missed once in a lifetime opportunity!'. in the end, she said to check out the other movies before i wanted to say: 'if you don't mind going in late , i can watch with you'.


went up to the cinema level and then 'fight' over : who should pay for ice lemon tea. i didn't know it was a plot when jiayi and evon was sitting together behaving intimately. they were like some caucasians/afghans sitting in the wrong seat! i did not take notice of them only when jiayi started laughing like a crazy girl la... so sickening! i felt so embarassed. but it's like my first time watching movie with only girls! very cool.


rachel bilson is very pretty! i read from a magazine few years ago when i was into O.C, she spent like $10,000 a year on her hair. although she is very petite, i prefer rachel bilson to misha barton. hayden christensen also damn handsome! HOT! i like his eyebrow and hairstyle. stylo milo.


after movie, we went to read blogs because i didn't know some other information and also kim wei started to .......... (sorry kim wei) before michelle came. on the way down the cathay, evon dragged me to STRIP-COED. i was like... is she serious? when i was almost so courageous to enter (secretly wanted to), she said need to make appointment. but i didn't know why i didn't figure that out at that point of time because i called them once and they told me the earliest appointment i could make was like 1 week later?!


took some pictures alone with every girl at the basement. then outside cathay, GERM took photos(i was the photographer), i have to admit i know nothing about photography. sucks at it. took some photos with them before walking towards plaza singapura alone wearing that hat. i thought it was fun because it could act as a social psychology experiment.


i so wanted to ask that rgs/rj netballer isabelle soh to wish me happy birthday but i guess she was with her boyfriend. she looks so much taller in person. its amazing how i knew she existed since 5 years ago through blogs, had a intense crush on her during sec 4 but never saw her once. wth.


managed to get a secondary school boy to wish me and another 21yrs old lady whose birthday fall on the same date and month (don't know how true is it though) to take a photo with me. woohoo! then we walked towards the park and had my birthday dinner.


i like the idea when i told xiaode that i just want it to be a simple and cheap affair when he claimed to sms the wrong person on his blog. apparantly, the presents weren't. i didn't expect two postsecret books! like perharps one postsecret, either stargirl or love, stargirl. i like all the presents very much.


i totally enjoyed the celebration, what matters most was for all of us to be happy. i know this is another transition of our life after graduation, some already know what we what, some are lost, some are worried, some had to do what they have promised, some just wished time would stop, some would.....


this year was very much different from last's year. i really appreciate it, the effort and all. i could feel it right away. i didn't talk much because i was admiring all of you that night. although i am not close with all of you and somtimes have different opinions, i'm glad to have meet all of you.






love,
melvin

PS: hmm, i feel like i'm jughead in the archie comics in this picture.

PPS: still owe G a double scoop green tea ice cream from Azabu Sabo Ice Cream Shop and rose(if she wants).

i was wondering if it is wrong to treat every single day the same? perharps it is due to the fact that i 'treasure' everyday. however some others might think that i should come out of my comfort zone and put in an effort for some occasions like b-day, v-day, christmas, anniversaries, etc. my future gf is so going to suffer.

i have alot to learn... especially how to love. i wish the lunar second month will come soon so that i can have that shoes and start to run to take things off my mind. need to learn how to use excel/access and fight with the programme for the next 2-3 months. god bless all.

thomas ong is fucking handsome with clothes on.

its not funny when you have no money. it sucks. getting married is not only just joint bank account, house, lives, overseas trip. happiness is but difficult to achieve because it will affect not only you but the people who are around you. i totally do not support the baby bonus policy that will not help in the other aspects except finance (even so, let's say its only for a max of 3 months?)

phoon yue chin is :D

it's always so bored the day before my birthday. i'm always alone. ah. now it rained, i can't go play soccer with random people. crap. wow. romantic date with grace tan tmr ah. like one day girlfriend. -.- so cool. wasting my life again or should i go queensway now to check out that asics running and lifestyle shoes. i need to start running.

i've always been dismantling all my spoilt shoes and keep those 'technologies' and soles. it is one of secret ambitions to work for nike(not sales assistant! though it won't hurt if i have to be one). imagine overseeing all the shoes technology processes, working in their headquarters(its very very big and beautiful), coming up with my own shoes (not design though) and not forgetting how the business management/strategies/marketing/branding/etc works. damn cool!

the female model for nike women looks like the same person for the nokia adveristment on msn messenger. she's really beautiful and takes my breath away when i look at her wearing nike women products. i'd agree without her, the products might not look so nice. another marketing strategy. wahahahha. :) seriously, wanting to work for nike has got nothing to do with her!

ah. if i can be like her(the male version)... how good it will be.... she's not jessica alba, but still very attractive. to me, she's probably more attractive than jessica alba right now. funny annit? i don't know what i'm thinking too.

blinkymummy is very *thumbs up*. =)))

tee shirt
swimming goggles
boxer/boxer brief
short sleeve shirt
boyzilian/legs waxing session
any edition of postsecret book
stargirl by jerry spinelli
love, stargirl by jerry spinelli
socks for street soccer/running
white asics/onitsuka tiger lifestyle shoes
tioman/phuket

chin wei is my stress buster. thinking of him is gay, but his antics is so funny!

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love, but it came too soon

And there was me and you and then we got real glued
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule?

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

La, la, la,
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la,
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever


this song never fails to crank me up. existed since pri sch. damn cool.

throughout the past few years, i finally feel that i was ready to give up my selfcentredness for once. but now, it's gone when i was randomly reading blogs and chanced upon it. is it worth investing emotion in it?

on the other hand, i'm wondering how can i treat my friends better when i treat my family like that? why everything come at the wrong time? it's definitely not going to be easy. maybe god wants me to learn from it and be a better person.

my mum is the greatest for her unconditional love towards her children. she's strong. i hope to follow her in future. but that means she is not treating herself well and i really hate it. i don't know what beholds in the future but i pray hard that she will be strong and healthy; i will be filial and have the capability to take care of her. that applies to my dad too. relations are getting better, but not financial.

so i don't know. i can't really get to sleep well because of fyp and my height. waking up every other hour. i'm so tired and hope i won't screw up the 3 slides for presentation later. god bless all.

i've never thought it would come so fast. i'm beginning to miss school even before i graduate. i thought i shouldn't feel this way, at least not for now. sigh. i can't really do my work now. tired.

i'm always so high when i read about sports. so cool. so pretty, so smart, so tall. :)

and i hope to reach the same level of attitude/thinking as my mum on perspectives of life and the world. it's kind of amazing talking to her for 2 hours enlightening me. i'm too worldly, academics is not everything.

wow wow wow. when i enter uni, most of the female counterparts will be younger than me. that feels weird. female seniors are so cool and sweet! wow. i think peggy soon (female winner of hey gorgeous) is a sociology undergrad. damn cool. today was a good until i paid for the shoes... oh man, school work is piling up again.