isn't she pretty?

things are on my mind and i cant get to sleep. i miss the times i chase 孫燕姿.

is it worth all the effort? what if you're like huang kaida in the golden path? everything will go down to drain even when its not your fault? is that considered your fate?

do you want to just work hard and believe that you will succeed one day without realising how itf feels to just let go of the baggage or do you just to live for the moment and learn from the mistakes you have made spurring you to greater heights in future?

work hard or work smart?

live for the moment or believe all your life?

phoon yue chin or huang kai da?

what is the right balance?

it sucks to be sick at the wrong time. i totally cannot concentrate. like living dead. eye candy was no where to be seen today. guess wont get to see her till next week. totally not contributing to my recovery.

ms excel makes me mad. i can do the calculation faster with a calculator manually. it sucks. i feel like burning the whole computer now. i wonder which idioit introduced excel. f it.

kelly just msn-ed me. it doesnt seem like she's been gone for 5 months. time flies. all of us are growing up so fast. too fast for my liking. it means that i'm graduating soon (no more schoolwork), a fresh start. but that also means i must be independent, hopefully i can get to do what i want. i just realised i wasted the last 6 years of my life. it sucks.

i so feel like i should meet phoon yue chin now as i'm reading her blog. she's so cool and smart.

i need a pair of lifestyle shoes and another pair of street soccer shoes. i want a pair of asics running shoes. no money no talk. got money talk rot. sigh.

i hate imperfections. i really do. things that are done should be perfect, nothing less than that. it sucks when i know i can do better after i look back at the things i've done, it still can be re-done but it just doesn't only involve me. it makes me not able to sleep well. being or doing things alone is still the best.

out of our own good, people are trying to impart all of their knowledge to us. but they did not realised that there are more bad than good by screwing us up. or is this how the society works? if it is, i think i'm kinda of screwed up because i still can't handle it. there are so few people who are truly working only for themselves. wonder what good there is after living for almost two decades.