i suddenly felt so lonely for a moment when i woke up. christmas is coming. one of my ideals is to be in a house downtown with my secondary 2/6 friends. there should be at least a fireplace, cabled tv and hi-fi or music player with lots of snow outside the pathway of whichever european country or america.

i've learnt that if one do not have the financial capability to start a family (in my opinion, at least $25,000 and a stable career that you are passionate about), please do not even think of it no matter how much you love to have a child. being nagged by your parents to give them a grandchild to hug or cure their boredom is an invalid reason too. you will only make your child suffer. you can make love 10times a day for 365days, just take the necessary precautions. now i don't really have the mood to do work now. it's a fucking 5% and i'm spoiling my damn health.

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every small decisions i made in the past might probably leave me with lifetime of regrets or at least the past 4 years.

looking at how those poly students play catching at the taekwando area behind the swimming pool made me realised that i've been stupid to think that all these games are childish. these are the simple pleasures in life when you are with a group of good friends.

killed a fucking army of ants.

i'm still a damn angsty teen right now.

you fucking work till you die.

bye.

24 hours a day isn't enough. i need another 4 more hours. this f-ing sucks.