I can log into my account but when i go jiayi's one. then i can't send her testimonial. and see the pic properly. why is is not http://friendster.com but http://alotofvagina.friendster.com. does friendster have virus too?!





proness. winner. now it piss me off a little cos i can't do what i want although i face the computer for more than 6hrs a day without internet access. boring. and i'm tired. less than 6hrs of sleep again. sigh. it sucks but today i did learn something. it's so scary. even meeting nathan is not as frightening. i miss my sec sch friends and classmates!

jy, your testimonial: the word is not nathan. it's nice. and i meant it, but i just want to play. anyway, i can't wait for weekends too. it's two more days! like after tmr is one day!!!!!! so cool. but then sat, i'm like meeting my sec sch friends in the evening. =x


good night world.

i regretted not buying the brown and navy blue pull and bear polo tee during the sale. ahhhhhhh. like so damn cheap. $19.90. sigh. and it's the color i want if i need to wear one to work/ go out. nathan. now that i showered i can't sleep just yet. ahhhh. freaking. no more gel on the hair.

i miss studying. crap. internship really sucks like shit. waste time, money and health only. i couldn't think properly and almost fell asleep. i'm feeling so freaking fat yet tired now. how to play soccer on wednesday anymore. sigh.

woohoo. that sms from evon was a very sweet gesture. what a good start to the day! :)

i'm a freaking lousy useless mummy's boy/son. please let nothing happen tonight and let me sleep in peace.

postsecret rocks my socks.

http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_a7jkcMVp5Vg/RtC9etTLnZI/AAAAAAAABgk/kvcc__cBT5E/s1600-h/losing.jpg

ah. i dislike attachment. it's making me irritated. stupid. i think i will be so tired tommorrow and i might be late. i feel like freaking someone upside down inside out like banana, papaya, alibaba and aninak. sigh. i still dunno what to wear/iron the clothes. so uncool like nathan.

now i seriously need to get freaking drunk so that i can get to sleep.
human are selfish. no one is noble, not even your partner. fairytales doesn't come true, kiss korean videoclip is produced just to cater to the audience.
money is so evil. if barter trade were to exist again. sigh.
dysfunctional.

ann siao is so cool because she can put me to sleep. 100m in 13sec. so pro. oh yes, but i doubt i can sleep. something bad is going to happen again. god bless.

alcohol is bad. hahaha. i'm so freaking hungry after i drink alcohol. i wonder why. oh man, abit screw up my regime i just started on tuesday. it was kind of an eye opener. i didn't know club was so small. and i can't dance for nuts. my first time with poly classmates. it doesn't really excite me at all , i think cos i don't know how to dance. that's why.

oh yes, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to make you fall. i swear i wasn't drunk at that time. i just didn't know that will happen. hope you're alright. very sorry! i just wonder what will happen if milk mix with alcohol. will it slow down the absorbtion rate of alcohol. ahhhh. still so freaking hungry. oh ya, please tell me when i was drunk/going to get drunk. i want to know. i need to know how it feels to be drunk. so i can be better. :)

and also, i realised we didn't take many pictures. like i never talk picture with everyone there individually. so sad. :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x0Y1Wk2wr74

this video makes me high. maldini speaking in english!!!!!!! omg! so damn charming. and kaka is so friggin cute when he smiles. he's such a cutie. it's like felicia chin together with joanne peh. wow.

joanne peh is my favourite gangster girl!
she can hit me, stab me, kick me. damn cool. i won't mind. hahahahaha. :)

soccer was good today. i realised i'm not as good as i think. i still have alot to learn. but i was pissed off with the 132 bus. i waited for 23mins for it to come at 7.40, which i didn't expect because this is the freaking bus i always take. there's no difference whether i left the house at 7pm or 7.25pm, still reach there at 8. argh. lucky there were other teams, if not i feel bad.

screw singtel broadband.

i have the sudden urge to meet the owner of blackjetta.blogspot.com; miss phoon yue chin.

i'm so tired right now but i can't get to sleep, i feel like drinking vodka or alcohol and get fucking drunk. get a hangover for the entire day tommorow since i do not know what to do and when i've recovered in the evening, i'll just go play soccer with my cousin. this feeling sucks.

i'm sorry for dissing anyone of you just now. i was just tired. pardon me. please don't treat me so well because i will take anyone for granted. i don't really feel comfortable when people treat me so well except my mum. i admit i like being treated well it's is kind of scary at the same time. i dunno.

i think i was trying to find an excuse to convince myself that it's alright that if i don't do well for this module. god bless.

oh yes, great. i guess that's it. someone flared up. but i guess the other party is trying to keep it down because of me. but don't they know i've already woke up and i can't think properly now? i need some drug to make me high.

i'm already so screwed up. i totally can't absorb things into my head alr, just trying to get 2hrs sleep yet they still want to discuss so loudly. this discuss shouldn't have taken place because whatever being said is invalid. there is no point in talking so damn loudly when nothing has been done for the past year. it affects me. or i should be glad they aren't shoutly like nobody's business? now i am wondering how is catalina. they've quietened down, i don't know if i should go back to sleep. so damn tired, but if i overslept. that's it. god bless me.

i watch channelnewsasia primetime morning because of suzanne jung. her face is so cute! :)

sat evening was fun. finally got to see chee heng and gang after 1 month. soccer wasn't that good cos it was raining. a few of my friends got ligament injury. it's scary because i'm feeling something wrong with my knees too. i don't want to not play soccer before i reach 35.

sat night was super fun. but i think i might be spoilsport throughout the entire night. ahhhhh. crazy nathan. i dunno why i did what i do.

Dear Melvin,
Here is your horoscope for Sunday, August 19:
You're having a hard time making up your mind, and that could lead to all sorts of minor, and possibly funny, romantic troubles. Don't force yourself, because you'll end up regretting any hard choices you make.

this might be good to convince me for what i did... i like you guys for being my friends. ok, no love because i never love anyone before but you all know what i mean...

maternal grandma's birthday yesterday. finally i got took a complete family photo for dunno since how many years ago. i also took one photo alone with my grandma and some other pictures with my cousins which i always wanted since eons.

oh man, i'm feeling lethargic again but i slept at 10.30pm yesterday and i didn't watch lost. :(

i got wasted by surfing friendster thru' out the night. friendster is so powerful, it can make people feel bad/useless. just hope what i do now will benefit me in future, unless i go blind or get knocked down by some vehicle or become handicapped. living by faith but not by sight is so difficult.

This is the church beside the vietnam orphanage. It was kind of scary when i want there alone secretly in the evening. It's always so quiet and locked up by 7pm. It's quite big and the 3 buildings were connected and there was only one guy looking after the church. There were dogs too. If i remembered correctly, there was like a tombstone (a stone that was engraved). Near the 'tombstone' was an sheltered open space which was around the size of our school street soccer court.







isn't it weird that there is some buddhist stuff at the left hand corner of the entrace?



oh no, now i can't get to sleep now! i feel creepy. i'm scared. i just keep thinking how i walked around and suddenly that guy approached me. he asked me to walk around myself and left me alone. i need someone to protect me. maybe like paris hilton or evangeline lilly or jesseca liu or kate beckinsale or i dunno.

i was wondering what will happen if i get prostate cancer?

drinking whole milk increases the risk of getting it. oh man. i've have already drunk almost more than 10x5x 4x 12 cups of milk in my entire life. crap.

this family let me learn alot, but also make my faith waver. it will be good if i can truly learn from all this, and i might be on my way to becoming someone famous like those sucessful people. but i can't really be bothered or get vexed about it from the bottom of my heart. that's something weird. maybe i'm already 'numb' to it. if i were to really learn from it, it must be from the bottom of my heart. i need more of such experience. human are interesting.

michelle wie and maria sharapova makes me happy and sad. they're so young yet so rich. and they are so much taller than me. sexy.

oh yes, elvin ng is damn hot too.

singtel broadband is pissing me off. it tells you to reboot your system almost every single day when IE doesn't display anything. wth is that? freaking nathan. i'm not what you as good as what all of you think.

i was looking at the mum but the daughter caught my attention immediately.



so cute, but i have bad camera. i was wondering why the mum dress so nice, but the dad....



some anonymous guy wearing nice bathing ape shoes when i was waiting for bus opposite chinatown point



boring. i was playing with my pimples.



woohoo! nice. i think i should go to operating theatre to see how they operate on humans. might be fun. like jack shephard! but sawyer gets to hug kate.

reading felicia chin's blog made me realised i take my parents for granted in everything they do for us. i do not cherish my time with them. sometimes i find them irritating. i don't know. i think they should take a little break, don't be to hard on themselves and provide everything for us. i don't know, it's just my brain. but my heart doesn't ache. weird.

i think i need an ipod.

i'm so not tired. but i'm super high high high. ann siao is so cool!

avril lavigne rocks my socks.
it's so beautiful it makes me wanna cry.
this moment is perfect, pls don't go away.
i need you now.

hahaha. shit this is making me emo. not high already. yeah FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT song alr!

wow. all american rejects songs are nice nice nice. fight fight fight! cool. i get to see my classmates tmr. woohoo. after test tmr might be fun like nathan i think. but i not sure whether the rest have test on thurs or fri. crazy. ann siao! i can't even run 100m in 13secs. omg. wooooohoooo. please read blackjetta everyone. omg. she's so cool. hahahaha. byebye.

i was watching the postsecret video and i realised it's been almost two years since i wanted to owe that first published postsecret book but it's $30+. wow. and stargirl. i wonder when am i going to own them.

i took a bottle of coke light to drink without realising it contains caffeine and it makes me hungry now. i'm already have some difficulty with sleeping because of tmr test. it only makes it worse. argh. anyway, this picture is kind of hot i think.

i'm talking to grace tan now. it's so cool and i like talking to her because she can make me laugh and smile like crazy. she is funny, thrifty, patience and have nice skin that makes me so jealous. but she is still my friend.

but but but, i keep bullying her. that's why she is my 'good friend'. if i stop bullying her and then if she is still my good friend means she's really a good friend to me. ok. sorry, there's something wrong with me. bye bye. time to watch lost. and i hate my head now, but i can't get to sleep. i don't want to sleep. sigh.

oh yes, i prefer jesseca liu to felicia chin now. oh no!

taking bus rides to kap was fun. the bus inspector was in the bus but he was busy doing something else. wow. i was thinking when was he going to do spot check but he didn't. and i saw one damn handsome caucasian. he's so hot. nice hair, nice eyelashes, nice cute body though not muscular. i don't know what tee he wore but it was dirty green, a black shorts with orange socks and red adidas track shoes with deuter bagpack(i like). caucasian doesn't have to wear nice clothes to stand out because they are already so outstanding.

the cold storage in kap was so busy and there's so many people to see. good place to do experiment. wow. cool. going there today reminds me of yesterday. so fun. ok, not fun but it kinds of cheer me up. i mean make me smile. hahahaha.

ok, i'm getting tired. ahhh. dinner with malaysian aunt later. then then then tests and exams can be so boring.

happy belated birthday to jia yi and jia wang.

wow. firstly, i just realised that two of my female friends live in the same block and they do not know each other. secondly, i went to the same block twice today because of the two friends. so cool!

i kind of secretly like jiayi knocking my head(but not so hard la). so cute. hahahaha. (ok, now it's not a secret anymore.) sorry for making you walk and walk and walk with your heels. i know how much it really hurts, ouch. like wearing soccer boots which will make your heels bleed after the entire match. but yes, i really need to get a drink on the way because i was thirsty and i scare my stinking breath will turn you off.

argh. like always i do not know what to do and stunned when she is always the one taking initiative. i feel bad/rude cos 'reject' her, but how? i cannot like anyhow, if not it's kind of inappropriate/rude also? but birthday girl leh, it's ok right? but why i never? well almost almost. why i 10000000 years never hug the opposite gender alr. but it's also good in another way, cos if i hug anyone then later anyhow think also die. ah, but i feel kind of regretful.

jia wang, thanks alot for offering to pay up first; but that's if you willing to accept our payment. sorry, i think u expected the belt right. i'm still not creative or romantic enough. still have lots to learn.

i feel sad yet happy. wow, sajc/acjc and soon to be universities. and they do know what they want in life. what about me? i feel like i'm forever stagnant at stage.

it also sucks to be a guy because u get horny easily. well, this sucks. be a girl is better. when you're a guy u need to do so many things. well, girls are gettting more indepedent but they still have a choice. ok, actually not. girls have to do so many household chores and that sucks too. ah, nature, damn it. defy nature. well, gay is kind of cool, but not when you're doing sports or in the bedroom though.

i'm so almost sure that i doubt i can/will take care of my parents when they're old. they are not sparing a thought for me by doing things for us. they think it's for our own good by making us comfortable. but the fact is they are making things worse. they will increase their chances of being ill faster as they age.

by not doing anything for us, we also get to learn. if not we will not be forced to learn, always being spoon fed and suffer when i get out to this society. when i freaking work, i will suffer and when i suffer the pay will be less. when the pay will be less, i will be les healthy and grow fatter. when i'm fatter, everything will screw upside down inside out. it's a vicious cycle. but by not having money, i can't even support myself. how to support them? what about my siblings.

maybe i go joing taliban. i like the way is sounds. ta-li-ban. well, i always have been secretly admiring osama in some ways. he's a genius in some way.

woohoo. most probably going to retake napfa again next sem. happy nathan. i saw the my napfa tester taking napfa today. wow wow wow. colourful converse sling bag, black adidas shoe bag, brown running shoes, pink slippers. i think she took 16.03min for 2.4km. shouldn't wear her watch and listen to ipod, if not can be faster. aiyo. but wow wow wow. like she's the only two girls there.

i wanted to thank her but i don't dare and i guess she must be thinking that both of us are cursing and swearing at her because of our results last week. oh no! but actually, i was secretly admiring her la. pls let me see her in school again... but i don't know her name or height or school or course or anything except that she's in yr3. proness. hahahaha.

so dead for fyp interview tmr. good job. god bless me.

ok, suddenly i vaguely remember that k told me she have a bf? or no? saded.

wow. i realised my english is so screwed up.

i guess i'll get my retribution when i become a parent. i don't feel bad anymore. i'm still so bloody immature. more money = longer working hours = no hot body = not so fit. but having a hot bod doesnt mean you're fit. oh well. screw up.

sleeping and waking up early is not very good. just because i woke up from 4-6+am but i didn't bother to wake my sis up despite knowing she was going to be late for sch can let my mum condemn me. told me to wake her up at 6.30am ltr. to her, there's not a single night that i will not sleep. i'm so short is because of lack of sleep, not the genes. not anyone's fault but mine. i feel like leaving hm now. i will be glad if paris hilton can hire me as a personal slave so that i can fly over to europe/america right now.

today was full of suspense. fyp and sec 2/6 grp of friends i met. wow. like first time in my life i get caught in such a situation. and i saw joy working in mooks. so fast time have past. the last time i met them was 7july on kelly's birthday. ah. dunno if they really have got nothing to do then wait for me. still feel bad but actually not really now because i know they won't mind. =X

well, ok. must make an effort to meet them before kelly flies off on 2 sep. oh no, jia wang and jiayi's birthday clash. great. oh yes, sitting beside evon was kind of cool/exciting/fun/too many random feelings. caramel frap from starbucks was love. like finally i get to drink starbucks since a million years ago.

sth is gonna happen.

having no cca records irks me. i do not know what happened during this 2 years in ngee ann. i can't help regretting but this cannot go on. i have so much less experience compared to others. the only thing i can do now is to seriously consider what career path to take if not i'll be wasting 3years like what ivan kor kor told me. i still haven't see the harsh reality out there and have no right to comment on anyone.