i fucked my brother up just now when he asked my sister whether she can help him wash his bowl. it's her birthday today and we did not celebrate it. i feel very bad now and i don't know how to apologise to him. i always lose my temper at him. poor brother. youngest and he can't do anything. i'm stuck with schoolwork. damn fucking busy.

i fucking hate projects. i wonder what will happen to my final year project. i realised that guys are lazy but they have a rough idea of what to do for projects. for girls, they're hardworking but they do not know what they have to do. this sucks. i'm feeling trap in this vicious cycle . i totally do not know what i'm studying for anymore, just to survive, to live but not achieving any goals of mine.