i was starstrucked today.
i saw 'baluku' on the bus on my way to school.
i saw daphne khoo during lunch. she sat at the next table beside me, just less than 2 metres away. she's quite slim, the tv is supposed to beautify a person, but not for her case. i almost wanted to take the bottle of water chestnut that she drank, but thought it was weird and stupid.
i thought i saw blinkymummy again, but it wasn't her.
i saw an old actress at carrefour just now. she's so tall.
i saw another caucasian. he's so tall that his head is just sweeping the top of the bus. he's gigantic. i want to be his friend!

i thought i saw blinkymummy on the 960 bus on saturday night. but it wasn't her.

Just decided to read through Electrical Systems tutorial questions and call it a day for my schoolwork. Was surfing friendster, i feel happy for my friends who are happy and have moved on in life. Yet i am struggling with my own life. Holding on to this small little faith has this excruciating pain of wondering when it will come true again. I dislike this semester timetable which does not allow us to have regular sleeping time. I slept for 8 hours yesterday, and i'm left with 3hours of sleep now. There's 4 different tutorial tomorrow, also the most tired day of all. I have finished 3 other tutorials, leaving ELS half done.

Reading blogs have become an essential part of my life. It cheers me up or sets me thinking. I think that i've read through lots of emotional stuff, and put myself in that person point of view. I like being a passerby in blogs, and just tag something encouraging or cheering them up. I'm an introvert,sensor,feeler,judger. So means being a psychologist is difficult.

Talked to my Econs tutor for awhile after i stayed back to ask him some question. Being in poly gives me no chance of studying psychology in NUS, unless i go overseas. I'm in this emotional phrase of life, so maybe it's just curiousity and not passion. I'm easily faltered.

Still have tons of homework for every single module to do, but then i haven't touched it at all. Really starting to lose the motivation of going to school. I've wondered why some people are in the school team, and when they go to another institution, they don't want to continue in that sports. Passion or learning more things is better? Which will lead to success and happiness?

Just a random entry, just to let the 1 or 2 people who reads my blog that i'm still alive.

the past few days was meaningful. got to learn something from church again. saw malcolm baptised, being push down the water and 'resurrect' again. went on city harvest, and there was overseas pastors preaching. both of them are very interesting, esp the guy who sung the song. he's so cool. that was also the first time i offered tithe. played soccer yesterday, and this time i didn't lose my temper, but i know kevin is disappointed with us, because we didn't improve anymore and the whole team is relying on him all the time esp the centre midfield.

i'm still trying my best not to dislike school and being friendly. i don't understand why can't we have the november/december holidays. i still have an hour to slp before going to school. couldn't slp on sat night and just now, i could feel the 'sensation' i felt when i slp very late during upper sec days. and when i was lying down on the bed till 2+, i could feel the 'pain' literally being taken away. is it just my mind or it's god?