wooo. din expect even more sms today. jus a few more la. but still very delighted already.
spent the whole day listening to LEAVE album. haha. what a unique thing to do. but i've been happy the whole day. trying to escape and stuff. cos i scared if what really someone called me and ask me out. but then no one have. lol. doesn't matter... =D
i forgotten what i wanted to say...
oh yes, i din go suntect. was scared. coward. din want to commit first till i really get a better understanding of what is love and relationship and more about the world.
suddenly, after shu zhen went offline...
i thought of jeanette aw. her character in a child's hope 2. can't remember her name liao. felicia chin is kit, li nan xing is hu yi ming, zhang yao dong is pin sth?, ahh. forgot liao.. nvm..
i remembered the scene where she bought the kids to macdonalds with li nan xing. to treat them meal. cos it's her birthday. she wanted to share her joy with everyone, since she's going to die soon... i just want to be like her. so caring....
i thought i did that by talking to shu zhen just now. cos i try to like make her remember the singpass and things related to o's stuff. wished her all the best and stuff...
yes, i think i shldn't do that. cos she's stressed enough. but i dunno what else to talk already.
or is it cos of lust? or maybe my boredom, loniliness that tempted me to msg her when jiawang go offline suddenly.
i dunno. i feel it's not very right, but also not wrong. but i know others will say i'm a flirt or something like that. just that it's become part of me now. since upper sec. or maybe it all started cos sj blocked me on msn... haha.
it's all in the past..
ah.. can't go on liao. i begin to feel that those feeling is coming back. i must stay happy. only like 2more hrs before there's show to watch..
*beams*
i'm fortunate.
and bday shld be a day whereby i shld thank my parents and not by spending more money.
that's what mrs.lee [ or is it mr.ore ?] said during pri 2 [ or is it pri 4?] . i have forgotten. but then i can remember what they mean.
*sweet memories...*
Saturday, February 26, 2005
listening to yanzi's LEAVE album now... it's been so long since i listen to a whole full of hers.
i was sleeping when it struck 12am on 26feb2005. anyway, i woke up to a quite shock state. thinking that my eyes got problem. cos i can't see clearly. but i was quite sure it was because of the sleeping. i was quite worried cos after a long while, then i got back my total full vision. lucky me, maybe that serves as an warning for me.
i decided to listen to yanzi's album and do something special for my bday ba. like typing in the dark right now.
rosanne was online. but she isn't online now. i couldn't console her. or maybe she have blocked me on msn by telling me she want to go ba. but i hope that she will sleep ba. cos she have to work later.
should i go andersens' ice cream at suntec later?
but i dunno what to do to console her or i want her to be happy or maybe i just want to see her.
i'm still not very stable yet in these relationship stuff.
LOVE. a four alphabet word. is so difficult to define. so difficult to find. maybe this is the hidden meaning of life. to search for that love.
and it seems that love/relationship is the only thing that people know it's wrong when it is going to be 'bribe over' by money. people will feel guilty over it. other than that, no.
money is everything liao.
it seems that bday doesn't really matter much to me anymore. just like what joy said, the one in bubblesofjoy.blogspot.com [ if u read this, pls forgive me ok, not want to put ur name/blog here.] i really find sense in her entries. and made me think back of the past and present. not that i can think alot, but at least i feel that i've known something more.
also, i want to thank my family. who tried an effort to make me happy, and bought ice cream puff to sort of celebrate. they said want go swensens tmr. ask me go down shop, but i dun think i will ba. unless, i'm going out. hai. i always talk before i think at home. why can't i talk like the way i treat my relatives/friends/non-family members/teachers? maybe i still take my family for granted. i'm happy that the remember my bday. i din expect that, since few years back. we din really celebrate bday.
somemore, not in turbulent times, they still spend instead of saving the money. i feel bad, but then not that bad. cos i just can't cry tho there's tears in my eyes now...
THANK YOU DAD & MUM, SIS & BRO...
and also to my friends who remembered my bday... thank you. now i feel like i'm being such not-a-good-friend cos i dun go and remember their bday. maybe they heard it's my bday from someone. then shun bian sms me. maybe they really care. i do not know.
but for the benifit of the doubt, i choose to believe the latter abit more. since they've been my classmate for 4years throughout the sec sch life.
frankly speaking i still feel something is amiss. but then now at least, i think that this is the longest truest feeling i've wrote since a super long time...
i always doubt that i've lost my humanity already. but i dunno what keeps me doing things that wun hurt others, or at least in my point of view. at least i try to care, just dunno how to express it well.
well, maybe like yingying said. dun take things as a responsibility...
it's like more of a responsibility in my nature... than out of love. i dun feel the love over there, or maybe i still dunno what is love.
but i seriously hope this 'responsibility' wun fade away. even when i come out of army...
cos i think by then, amry will change me alot.
and like i always said and worried.
i might grow up to be a jealous, full of regrets, spiteful, unfilial person.
then how?
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*mosquitos are surrounding me i supposed. i feel so itchy on my hands out of a suddenly.*
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i think and definitely is the longest entry i have wrote since a long time. not intended. tho i somehow know that it will be the longest entry i've ever wrote since i change the template or start this new blog address.
i dun really have bday wish for the past for years actually[ at least i think so]. but for now. i hope that my family will treasure each other more, spend more time together, love each other, my dad and mum will not be so xin ku, my sis and bro will mature faster [ but hope the dark ugly side of this society scares the shit out of them].
rosanne be happy.
my friends be happy. who are my friends? i also dunno. ok.
the whole world happy.
world peace.
everybody i know will have good a's and o's result. tho i know i'm quite a goner already.
i grow taller and be more optimistic and get back the past melvin in rvps[ the old me in pri sch].
still got alot more. and i can't think of it right now. cos i wrote this entry on impulse.
oh yes, to get to know sun yan zi, stefanie more. get to see her more. get to learn from her. get her to be my god sis. and maybe elva also the same. jeanette aw. felicia chin. paolo maldini. robbie fowler. kaka. zidane. roberto carlos. luis figo. nesta. nedved. del piero. beckham. and many more....
seee. i wrote this entry on impulse. and i always am. every entry is i think. but today's is the worst.
oh yes, i forgot. still got miss lau. miss sng. mr khew. =)
ok ba, i go enjoy my LEAVE album, which rot for two years liao.
it's the first autograph session i attend of yanzi's. together with a unknown person i met on the irc for the first time. kiro... wonder how is she now also.. din keep in contact already.
[ i just realised that i was so daring in the past, lucky for me... i din meet any bad guys. phew...]
god bless everyone.
and to myself. cos o's is like out in 2day's time.
sunday, i sure will get questioned till siao. hai. quite stress being the eldest in family. and also my paternal side.
ahhhhhhh. i forgot to add another thing. i like to watch 1/2 yuan fen. [ english title: you are the one] on channel 8. i like that show very much. everyone in there except patricia mok. but come to think of it.. she add on to the laughter in the show. if not for her.. i dun think it will be as interesting anyway.
* damn moquitos/flys/insects... i'm so itchy all over.*
oh terence cao = super eligible bachelor. [ i want to be like him.]
chor chew meng = can't express well, but his actions show it all. [ i want his boyish look, since i can't be as tall as terance cao]
jaclyn tay = innery beauty [ i want her heart of gold.]
rui en = hua ping. seriously, i cant think anymore really good abt her for now. but she sure looks quite pretty.. maybe her ignorance to this dark ugly side of the society?
chen song ling = career woman. caring. but same as chow chew meng. has a da jie quality. [ i hope to have her leadership/qualities of leading the siblings.]
ps: i like the way chen song ling sway her body and stuff. her hair like so nice? i'm totally attracted to it. so class... i shall watch the next episode. cos when she jump to snatch the hotdog bun meant for fido in the ad. i could see her stomach abit. so tone.
disclaimer : i'm not a pervert or have some fetish. just that i like to be a pretty boy. i duno why. i'm straight! and i dun like facial hair. just like woman does. but i play soccer...
lastly, christopher lee = happy go lucky. [ i want his this attitude too, i'm like too serious in everything.]
but if i'm not serious, everything will go haywire. just like how i got defeated by SARS, and thus resulting in my louy o's result which is coming in 2days time.
ok. i have nothing left to say liao ba...
oh yes, i think today is the longest time i spent on writing a blog entry too. since at least got 1/2 year ago?
=D
happy bday to lim zhi hao and loh nyean chek.
happy belated bday to zoe tay's newborn baby, yvonne yeo, xxlustforbloodxx jie.
and future bday to alice, zh's gf.
also to lee yeung and jane xie, whose bday is coming real soon.
isabelle of 405 in rgs, jamie yeo, thomas koh in april.
anmin, serene lee in may.
shi ling, joy poh and mum and rachel tan of u17 nball team in june.
yanzi, joanne in july.
bro, alicia , yong kai in august.
si jia, malcolm, stacy in sep.
ginnie, amy fang, melody chong in oct.
angeline, ruoci, shuwei, luis figo, joy in nov.
rosanne, ivan, clarecia, dad in dec.
oh, i dunno why i listed it. i tempted to stop but i can't. and i realised i still dunno many pple bday. and ying ying is one of them. i shall go check it out later.
i'm just not a good friend. she's in my buddies list on msn. but then i just can't remember. maybe i'm taking her for granted already. that's bad...
oh shit. still got shu zhen's bday i forgot.
damn damn damn.
jia wang's also.
but then my hp can store only 25bday.
how am i supposed to remember everything. i'm too lazy to record... i'm just worried this is just another beginning of another nightmare. i'm just so reluctant to do everything now. is it becos the o's is over? or it's already fated in me. to be lousy thruout my entire life?
ending of track 10 : LEAVE in the "LEAVE" album liao.
i so wish i can turn back time....
yanzi.... really part a significant part of me. that i wun forget. and also to sj, thanks. if no for u, i will not know yanzi. lucky, that's when i'm inoccent. know nothing much about love. wasn't really hurt. but still it is still etached in my mind. maybe it's for forever? i dunno...
look where we are, we've come so far...
there's still a long long way to go..
.
.
.
family and friends, together we stand.
and in the end,
hand in hand...
.
.
.
.
.
.
yanzi rox!
track 11: we will get there. [national theme song for 2002 also.]
i was sleeping when it struck 12am on 26feb2005. anyway, i woke up to a quite shock state. thinking that my eyes got problem. cos i can't see clearly. but i was quite sure it was because of the sleeping. i was quite worried cos after a long while, then i got back my total full vision. lucky me, maybe that serves as an warning for me.
i decided to listen to yanzi's album and do something special for my bday ba. like typing in the dark right now.
rosanne was online. but she isn't online now. i couldn't console her. or maybe she have blocked me on msn by telling me she want to go ba. but i hope that she will sleep ba. cos she have to work later.
should i go andersens' ice cream at suntec later?
but i dunno what to do to console her or i want her to be happy or maybe i just want to see her.
i'm still not very stable yet in these relationship stuff.
LOVE. a four alphabet word. is so difficult to define. so difficult to find. maybe this is the hidden meaning of life. to search for that love.
and it seems that love/relationship is the only thing that people know it's wrong when it is going to be 'bribe over' by money. people will feel guilty over it. other than that, no.
money is everything liao.
it seems that bday doesn't really matter much to me anymore. just like what joy said, the one in bubblesofjoy.blogspot.com [ if u read this, pls forgive me ok, not want to put ur name/blog here.] i really find sense in her entries. and made me think back of the past and present. not that i can think alot, but at least i feel that i've known something more.
also, i want to thank my family. who tried an effort to make me happy, and bought ice cream puff to sort of celebrate. they said want go swensens tmr. ask me go down shop, but i dun think i will ba. unless, i'm going out. hai. i always talk before i think at home. why can't i talk like the way i treat my relatives/friends/non-family members/teachers? maybe i still take my family for granted. i'm happy that the remember my bday. i din expect that, since few years back. we din really celebrate bday.
somemore, not in turbulent times, they still spend instead of saving the money. i feel bad, but then not that bad. cos i just can't cry tho there's tears in my eyes now...
THANK YOU DAD & MUM, SIS & BRO...
and also to my friends who remembered my bday... thank you. now i feel like i'm being such not-a-good-friend cos i dun go and remember their bday. maybe they heard it's my bday from someone. then shun bian sms me. maybe they really care. i do not know.
but for the benifit of the doubt, i choose to believe the latter abit more. since they've been my classmate for 4years throughout the sec sch life.
frankly speaking i still feel something is amiss. but then now at least, i think that this is the longest truest feeling i've wrote since a super long time...
i always doubt that i've lost my humanity already. but i dunno what keeps me doing things that wun hurt others, or at least in my point of view. at least i try to care, just dunno how to express it well.
well, maybe like yingying said. dun take things as a responsibility...
it's like more of a responsibility in my nature... than out of love. i dun feel the love over there, or maybe i still dunno what is love.
but i seriously hope this 'responsibility' wun fade away. even when i come out of army...
cos i think by then, amry will change me alot.
and like i always said and worried.
i might grow up to be a jealous, full of regrets, spiteful, unfilial person.
then how?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
*mosquitos are surrounding me i supposed. i feel so itchy on my hands out of a suddenly.*
.
.
.
.
.
i think and definitely is the longest entry i have wrote since a long time. not intended. tho i somehow know that it will be the longest entry i've ever wrote since i change the template or start this new blog address.
i dun really have bday wish for the past for years actually[ at least i think so]. but for now. i hope that my family will treasure each other more, spend more time together, love each other, my dad and mum will not be so xin ku, my sis and bro will mature faster [ but hope the dark ugly side of this society scares the shit out of them].
rosanne be happy.
my friends be happy. who are my friends? i also dunno. ok.
the whole world happy.
world peace.
everybody i know will have good a's and o's result. tho i know i'm quite a goner already.
i grow taller and be more optimistic and get back the past melvin in rvps[ the old me in pri sch].
still got alot more. and i can't think of it right now. cos i wrote this entry on impulse.
oh yes, to get to know sun yan zi, stefanie more. get to see her more. get to learn from her. get her to be my god sis. and maybe elva also the same. jeanette aw. felicia chin. paolo maldini. robbie fowler. kaka. zidane. roberto carlos. luis figo. nesta. nedved. del piero. beckham. and many more....
seee. i wrote this entry on impulse. and i always am. every entry is i think. but today's is the worst.
oh yes, i forgot. still got miss lau. miss sng. mr khew. =)
ok ba, i go enjoy my LEAVE album, which rot for two years liao.
it's the first autograph session i attend of yanzi's. together with a unknown person i met on the irc for the first time. kiro... wonder how is she now also.. din keep in contact already.
[ i just realised that i was so daring in the past, lucky for me... i din meet any bad guys. phew...]
god bless everyone.
and to myself. cos o's is like out in 2day's time.
sunday, i sure will get questioned till siao. hai. quite stress being the eldest in family. and also my paternal side.
ahhhhhhh. i forgot to add another thing. i like to watch 1/2 yuan fen. [ english title: you are the one] on channel 8. i like that show very much. everyone in there except patricia mok. but come to think of it.. she add on to the laughter in the show. if not for her.. i dun think it will be as interesting anyway.
* damn moquitos/flys/insects... i'm so itchy all over.*
oh terence cao = super eligible bachelor. [ i want to be like him.]
chor chew meng = can't express well, but his actions show it all. [ i want his boyish look, since i can't be as tall as terance cao]
jaclyn tay = innery beauty [ i want her heart of gold.]
rui en = hua ping. seriously, i cant think anymore really good abt her for now. but she sure looks quite pretty.. maybe her ignorance to this dark ugly side of the society?
chen song ling = career woman. caring. but same as chow chew meng. has a da jie quality. [ i hope to have her leadership/qualities of leading the siblings.]
ps: i like the way chen song ling sway her body and stuff. her hair like so nice? i'm totally attracted to it. so class... i shall watch the next episode. cos when she jump to snatch the hotdog bun meant for fido in the ad. i could see her stomach abit. so tone.
disclaimer : i'm not a pervert or have some fetish. just that i like to be a pretty boy. i duno why. i'm straight! and i dun like facial hair. just like woman does. but i play soccer...
lastly, christopher lee = happy go lucky. [ i want his this attitude too, i'm like too serious in everything.]
but if i'm not serious, everything will go haywire. just like how i got defeated by SARS, and thus resulting in my louy o's result which is coming in 2days time.
ok. i have nothing left to say liao ba...
oh yes, i think today is the longest time i spent on writing a blog entry too. since at least got 1/2 year ago?
=D
happy bday to lim zhi hao and loh nyean chek.
happy belated bday to zoe tay's newborn baby, yvonne yeo, xxlustforbloodxx jie.
and future bday to alice, zh's gf.
also to lee yeung and jane xie, whose bday is coming real soon.
isabelle of 405 in rgs, jamie yeo, thomas koh in april.
anmin, serene lee in may.
shi ling, joy poh and mum and rachel tan of u17 nball team in june.
yanzi, joanne in july.
bro, alicia , yong kai in august.
si jia, malcolm, stacy in sep.
ginnie, amy fang, melody chong in oct.
angeline, ruoci, shuwei, luis figo, joy in nov.
rosanne, ivan, clarecia, dad in dec.
oh, i dunno why i listed it. i tempted to stop but i can't. and i realised i still dunno many pple bday. and ying ying is one of them. i shall go check it out later.
i'm just not a good friend. she's in my buddies list on msn. but then i just can't remember. maybe i'm taking her for granted already. that's bad...
oh shit. still got shu zhen's bday i forgot.
damn damn damn.
jia wang's also.
but then my hp can store only 25bday.
how am i supposed to remember everything. i'm too lazy to record... i'm just worried this is just another beginning of another nightmare. i'm just so reluctant to do everything now. is it becos the o's is over? or it's already fated in me. to be lousy thruout my entire life?
ending of track 10 : LEAVE in the "LEAVE" album liao.
i so wish i can turn back time....
yanzi.... really part a significant part of me. that i wun forget. and also to sj, thanks. if no for u, i will not know yanzi. lucky, that's when i'm inoccent. know nothing much about love. wasn't really hurt. but still it is still etached in my mind. maybe it's for forever? i dunno...
look where we are, we've come so far...
there's still a long long way to go..
.
.
.
family and friends, together we stand.
and in the end,
hand in hand...
.
.
.
.
.
.
yanzi rox!
track 11: we will get there. [national theme song for 2002 also.]
Friday, February 25, 2005
i think at the end of jc, i will have very sweet memories like most a's students do. just hope it's not like another experience in oss. that will be better if i enter the school team, it will be tough and tiring. but those sweet memories will forever be etached in my mind.
i think when pple enter poly, they will tend to play more , enjoy life. and forget everything. i dun mean that everyone will be like that [majority]. so they will take things for granted. and things will be like what i experience in oss. or maybe not. cos i wun get complacent anymore, since poly is different from sec sch/jc.
justanotherpersoninthisworld's point of view.
i think when pple enter poly, they will tend to play more , enjoy life. and forget everything. i dun mean that everyone will be like that [majority]. so they will take things for granted. and things will be like what i experience in oss. or maybe not. cos i wun get complacent anymore, since poly is different from sec sch/jc.
justanotherpersoninthisworld's point of view.
blogsurfing halfway thru... but then i came to a conclusion why guys are unfaithful or sth like that. cos after jc/poly. they go to the army. so when they're in there. they got no time to think of those days in sch. which, i believe many students will miss those days. and since they're so busy getting trained esp with those 'do or u will suffer' situation. there bound to be people sabotaging each other in bmt or at least the first few months in army cos the bond is not there yet. so they have learnt how to be like that. being very cautious and things like that.
and now i finally realised how powerful is money. and why people will rob/steal/kill for it.
i can understand why money is number 1, in terms of any relationship.[ for certain people]
poly or jc. i still can't decide.
and i realised. only thru reading blog, i feel that i'm more humane than how i feel real life.
my english sux. and i guess, no one is reading what i type anything.
back to reading blog...
and now i finally realised how powerful is money. and why people will rob/steal/kill for it.
i can understand why money is number 1, in terms of any relationship.[ for certain people]
poly or jc. i still can't decide.
and i realised. only thru reading blog, i feel that i'm more humane than how i feel real life.
my english sux. and i guess, no one is reading what i type anything.
back to reading blog...
Thursday, February 17, 2005
16feb 2005 is a day i must remember for at least the next few years. or better still, for life. at least must last till i get a gf. but i hope i wun get a gf so soon also. haha. yay. happy la.....
euphoric-ed.
elated.
delighted.
contented.
joyful.
jubilant.
ecstatic.
overjoyed.
ok, only the first 2 words are from my mind. the rest were from dictionary.com. but well, i learnt those words before only to return it to my teachers so soon.
one more week before i get my results.
and it means that it's my bday.
my results will determine how my bday will be celebrated. in tears of joy. or in tears of resentment. it will result in the real beginning of my life though sec sch have somehow ruined it. or rather i should say upper sec or actually, it's SARS. i dunno why i used to like a word with sar in it. anyway, i have stopped using it anymore. except for my yahoo account. anyway, it's not that i'm unhappy or superstitious. just so happen that i dun use it anymore.
and for now, i have concluded that the 2 people who have SS as their initials are the saint in my life. or at least once. or at least for now.
well, i dunno... my crush always doesn't seem to last very long. sigh. not too sure though.
but anyway, the bottomline is...
i'm happy today.
and i hope she[the person who made my day or at least for the next few days] will not be tired out. and thanks alot alot.
euphoric-ed.
elated.
delighted.
contented.
joyful.
jubilant.
ecstatic.
overjoyed.
ok, only the first 2 words are from my mind. the rest were from dictionary.com. but well, i learnt those words before only to return it to my teachers so soon.
one more week before i get my results.
and it means that it's my bday.
my results will determine how my bday will be celebrated. in tears of joy. or in tears of resentment. it will result in the real beginning of my life though sec sch have somehow ruined it. or rather i should say upper sec or actually, it's SARS. i dunno why i used to like a word with sar in it. anyway, i have stopped using it anymore. except for my yahoo account. anyway, it's not that i'm unhappy or superstitious. just so happen that i dun use it anymore.
and for now, i have concluded that the 2 people who have SS as their initials are the saint in my life. or at least once. or at least for now.
well, i dunno... my crush always doesn't seem to last very long. sigh. not too sure though.
but anyway, the bottomline is...
i'm happy today.
and i hope she[the person who made my day or at least for the next few days] will not be tired out. and thanks alot alot.
Monday, February 14, 2005
i really think i miss sch quite alot. i'm so hoping that i'm with lee yeung, yi wei and valen now. i know i'm being anti-social like that right now. cos i know their at goodwood hotel, and it's like just so near my house. just 1/2hr can reach liao. but i nvr tell joseph that i want to go. i want to go there very much, though i know i will be stuck and doing nothing there. maybe lee yeung will like help me to start the conversation. =) i hope i will remember him always... my current situation doesn't allow me to go. and this is the first time [think so] , that i wanted to go somewhere but i can't. no grounded or anything. just that i dun want to spend money. so now.. is it to me, money is more important that friendship. i'm just wondering... and wondering how am i going to be when i grow up. a person full of regrets, jealous of people when i see them together. try to break them up, hate everything. end up going to jail. who knows? i just hope not. anyway, who who who can i tell? it's just so difficult to kai kou... and tell who? lee yeung? but i doubt he can't do much also though i think that he really care abt me. and i hope it's really true...
happy valentine day.
and hapi bday to valentina.
happy valentine day.
and hapi bday to valentina.
Sunday, February 13, 2005
went ta give out flyers today. i was late.. anyway, after that. i was in major stoning. i queue at the wrong bus lane. i got down at the wrong stop. my right foot hurts. but my left foot is alright. the arch of my right leg hurts. the arch in the shoes is so hard and so high, applying so much pressure on the arch of the right foot. now i know why people wear the shoes undone, cos it's more comfortable that way. look at nike shoes. seldom people do that. or am i wrong? except those nike air force high and nike dunk high then i got nothing to say la. usually adidas shoelace so thick and big one ma. anyway, i shld not complain la. cos is i want to buy the shoes one ma, somemore cheap. just hope somehow after walking awhile more or trying to squeeze the shoes in between the edge of staircase and my leg to make the thing go down down down. jia wang is in china liao. wonder how is he. sure enjoying one... anyway, i dunno whether i shld go give out the flyers again on mon. it's valentine's day. yes, i do not have a date and stuff. sigh. but i just dun want to do work. today, the thought of her, jernan[ i dunno why] and joyce motivated me. well, i hope it's that way. and one day, i will make it big. to show it to everyone. and hope i will be able to share my joy with everyone too, esp her.
Thursday, February 10, 2005
went read her blog. she didn't write new entries. wonder how she is now? she seems blur blur de.. the last tag she tagged in the doggleboard. 'new year le?' what's supposed to mean? anyway, yesterday, i had a dream ba. i not sure is it a dream also. but i remember i thought of her. and adidas shoes also. i think most probably is superstar ba. i really can't remember liao...
during the first day of new year, i watched show on chnl 8. all those shows really show me what true love is. i hope i can be them. esp louis koo[ i have e same surname as him, and i like him too. i think he and thomas ong have the super boyish look alike face lor. i like.. handsome sia].. but if i were in his shoes in that show, i wouldn't know what to do also. but he broken his promise to the main actress[ is she maggie cheung? she's pretty. weeeeeeeeeeeee. wee.] cos there's still lust in him. only after that he realised that she loved him so much. i dunno why girls so wei da... and guys are always not the faithful one.. and i'm a guy myself..
hmm, the show that alec su acted in.. i like the attitude of the elder bro. and i hope to have his attitude, except not to learn bad and join traid society...
oh ya, the way my uncle sleeps is very very scary. it's like every millisecond he sleep, we worry for him. his snore is so loud that the whole house could hear it. but the point is, actually he breathe with his mouth. that's why. his whole stomach will suck up and suck down. like how the way u get punched in the stomach.. it's like having breathing difficulty when he sleeps and he actually dun know that... actually, he knows it. but he din want to go see the doctor. it's sooo scary. he's one of the uncle i like and can talk to most of the time. other is like always wan to win de, show u that they're better than u in everyway. esp soccer also want to win. ya, cos they bet ma. so they surely know more. i dun really watch soccer for the past few years liao lor..
well. second day of new year. and my parents are not too happy. i hope they dun quarrel soon. partly becos we came back at 4am yesterday cos my mum helped my grandmother to pray, my siblings' undone homework [ now just finished] and money problem...
and less than 5mins ago, my dad received a call from my paternal aunt. call us that they are going to have dinner soon. and their house is in the east lor. no that they dunno we're always late de. i know it's rude. but it's a part of us in my family liao. haha. well, being the eldest in the paternal family does have some pressure and i hate it. damn, later they will ask me about my result liao. wad am i supposed to say? money money money. sometimes i really wished i was in those third world country, they're so happy even without money. so carefree. so lively. no trouble. know what true love is. and wun betray anyone or anything becos of money.
i hope she is alright.
during the first day of new year, i watched show on chnl 8. all those shows really show me what true love is. i hope i can be them. esp louis koo[ i have e same surname as him, and i like him too. i think he and thomas ong have the super boyish look alike face lor. i like.. handsome sia].. but if i were in his shoes in that show, i wouldn't know what to do also. but he broken his promise to the main actress[ is she maggie cheung? she's pretty. weeeeeeeeeeeee. wee.] cos there's still lust in him. only after that he realised that she loved him so much. i dunno why girls so wei da... and guys are always not the faithful one.. and i'm a guy myself..
hmm, the show that alec su acted in.. i like the attitude of the elder bro. and i hope to have his attitude, except not to learn bad and join traid society...
oh ya, the way my uncle sleeps is very very scary. it's like every millisecond he sleep, we worry for him. his snore is so loud that the whole house could hear it. but the point is, actually he breathe with his mouth. that's why. his whole stomach will suck up and suck down. like how the way u get punched in the stomach.. it's like having breathing difficulty when he sleeps and he actually dun know that... actually, he knows it. but he din want to go see the doctor. it's sooo scary. he's one of the uncle i like and can talk to most of the time. other is like always wan to win de, show u that they're better than u in everyway. esp soccer also want to win. ya, cos they bet ma. so they surely know more. i dun really watch soccer for the past few years liao lor..
well. second day of new year. and my parents are not too happy. i hope they dun quarrel soon. partly becos we came back at 4am yesterday cos my mum helped my grandmother to pray, my siblings' undone homework [ now just finished] and money problem...
and less than 5mins ago, my dad received a call from my paternal aunt. call us that they are going to have dinner soon. and their house is in the east lor. no that they dunno we're always late de. i know it's rude. but it's a part of us in my family liao. haha. well, being the eldest in the paternal family does have some pressure and i hate it. damn, later they will ask me about my result liao. wad am i supposed to say? money money money. sometimes i really wished i was in those third world country, they're so happy even without money. so carefree. so lively. no trouble. know what true love is. and wun betray anyone or anything becos of money.
i hope she is alright.
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
hmm. i like the song that is being played in jane's blog. it's very nice. and the lyrics quite meaningful.. at least for all those i meaning to chase the meaning. i wonder who sings that song. i doubt that it's not yanzi ba.. this song makes me have mixed feeling. being cared/loved and vice versa. anyway, happy lunar new year to everyone.
Monday, February 07, 2005
Sunday, February 06, 2005
going to play soccer soon. i'm quite reluctant go cos i have to wear shorts and show my ugly legs on the bus. there's stubble already. and another reason is because she's online now. her nick is 'wo xiang he ta x [ yi qi ] '. she loves bougie. i wonder who is he/she. i hope she's not that pissed already. how i wished i'm in nan chaiu high. then can go chinese new year eve celebration in sch and see her. talking abt it, i wondering who's going back. and shld i wear jeans if i go back. then i will not have enough jeans liao. anyway, i think i should get going already. hope she will enjoy today and tmr cos tmr they will have idg outing. and if i go compass point. i hope to see them. but i doubt so, as i will be at home since i bought my shoes.
yes, i bought the shoes myself with my bro. the first pair of shoes i bought myself without my mum. and this is the first pair of adidas footwear i bought. yes, it's quite flat inside. and rather cheap. so i bought it. i just had to pay $2 more. heh. soooo good. it's adidas court supreme M. white/aluminium color. at first, i hope that it was a multi purpose shoes as it has the word 'court' in the shoes ma. how i know turn out to be a tennis shoes. but then the box state it's 'lifestyle' category. i begin to like white shoes. i duno why. it's already been like that since i bought the nike air force one. air force one production already been stopped i heard from the shop salesperson. and nike terminator low is in trend now. anyway, i can wait for wear my new pair of shoes and spoil it by playing soccer. =X haha.
i dunno whether i'm missing her or thinking of her. i'm confused.
yes, i bought the shoes myself with my bro. the first pair of shoes i bought myself without my mum. and this is the first pair of adidas footwear i bought. yes, it's quite flat inside. and rather cheap. so i bought it. i just had to pay $2 more. heh. soooo good. it's adidas court supreme M. white/aluminium color. at first, i hope that it was a multi purpose shoes as it has the word 'court' in the shoes ma. how i know turn out to be a tennis shoes. but then the box state it's 'lifestyle' category. i begin to like white shoes. i duno why. it's already been like that since i bought the nike air force one. air force one production already been stopped i heard from the shop salesperson. and nike terminator low is in trend now. anyway, i can wait for wear my new pair of shoes and spoil it by playing soccer. =X haha.
i dunno whether i'm missing her or thinking of her. i'm confused.
Friday, February 04, 2005
paul wai finally have a handphone. though not colour one, but then it's still good. at least he's happy. and then i find him very good. the part is that he doesn't have a hp but he didn't care if he was like being extra or what.. so now with a hp, life will be different for him. i wondering whether rosanne working today anot. cos she was online at 3+pm ba...
i didn't know i was using adult fare till kevin mentioned it just now. the sp open house trip was wasted. went there but didn't even ask anything. actually, i think their main aim is to go there to eat at the fast food restaurent. and we did. after roaming around, we went back. when i reached queensway, i started to replied joyce's sms. i should have done that earlier. she didn't reply back. i hate it when i just want to sms, but then something irritates me. and the orginal meaning of what i wanted to reply back is gone. i hate it. why can't my brain just remember all those things. i hate it that i just can't reply her back when i was in sp with alex they all. didn't want them to know and i feel so 'extra' smsing. everything was wasted today. queensway, there's no size of the shoes i want. the color i want isn't there. went back to shop then funan. it's the same old thing. nothing much. i just topped up my card less than 3days ago. now i spend abt $7+ on travelling. that is infuriating. went youth park. it was alright la. wasn't that bored. but i dunno why they say it's bored. anyway, i almost was unfaithful to rosanne. lucky, i saw the guy with the girl. so i assume they're bg/gf. ok.. dun talk abt this le.. later i keep thinking..
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i'm still thinking what to blog. at the same time thinking abt the girl liao. she from np one.
damn.
digress.
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ahh. i dunno why cheeheng is like that. not 'bu shang' him. just that there's always chance for him to show concern for her. but he didn't make use of the chance. i know kevin is angry with chee heng, cos it was open to public. but we paid $15 to watch it. ok, i share the $15 with kevin. but chee heng paid the most. 7 tickets. cos of her.... i pity him. but then... ok, i have no say.
i know he meant well for ginnie. at least it was for the tsunami fund... so i'm not that angry or what. in fact i'm not. just hope i did a very very duper small part though we got goodie bag. hah.
stupid brain. i still abit thinking of the girl. but she looks familiar and stuff. but is not shu hui from yzutld. funny..
i need to see my collection of her pic liao.
where's the 1/2yr i stated in the blog. it isn't a week yet.
i admire ed...
shitified me.
ok, i just ranting away again. ignore me.
aiya, bye. talking to forewall.
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i'm still thinking what to blog. at the same time thinking abt the girl liao. she from np one.
damn.
digress.
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ahh. i dunno why cheeheng is like that. not 'bu shang' him. just that there's always chance for him to show concern for her. but he didn't make use of the chance. i know kevin is angry with chee heng, cos it was open to public. but we paid $15 to watch it. ok, i share the $15 with kevin. but chee heng paid the most. 7 tickets. cos of her.... i pity him. but then... ok, i have no say.
i know he meant well for ginnie. at least it was for the tsunami fund... so i'm not that angry or what. in fact i'm not. just hope i did a very very duper small part though we got goodie bag. hah.
stupid brain. i still abit thinking of the girl. but she looks familiar and stuff. but is not shu hui from yzutld. funny..
i need to see my collection of her pic liao.
where's the 1/2yr i stated in the blog. it isn't a week yet.
i admire ed...
shitified me.
ok, i just ranting away again. ignore me.
aiya, bye. talking to forewall.
Thursday, February 03, 2005
i'm wearing a pair of jeans now. it's so uncomfortable. now i know why pple wear baggy instead of just fitting jeans. it's so tight. and if i get a wedgie, it's so difficult for me.. unless i go to the toilet. and that sucks. cos it takes up alot of time. and i think i know why the other pair cost $10 more. cost it's in original blue. and abit white.. faded in the centre in a line. aiya, i dunno how to say la. but then it's like it looks nicer. i like that color. i thought of wearing it just now. but then cos i wore this black one already, and it's sweeping the dirty floor. how can i put this pair back into the closet? hipsters are not so comfortable after all. but the normal type look awkward. cos it will make the butt look big and out of shape... eeeeeeeeee.....
if i get a pair of shoes, i will wear that pair of jeans maybe on sat. not too sure. see how first. and it's time to wear all my new clothing. next wed is new year. weeeeeeeeeeee. time to collect ang bao. but it will be all reuturned to carlvin kor kor. i wish they could sell a pair of white/white nike dunk low for like $90+ . and i will buy it. *prays*
if i get a pair of shoes, i will wear that pair of jeans maybe on sat. not too sure. see how first. and it's time to wear all my new clothing. next wed is new year. weeeeeeeeeeee. time to collect ang bao. but it will be all reuturned to carlvin kor kor. i wish they could sell a pair of white/white nike dunk low for like $90+ . and i will buy it. *prays*
the virus thing is gone. phew... anyway, i regretted one thing i do. i always regretted the things i did. lucky, only my right leg is shaved. there's so many ingrown hair. and cuts and scars, i did the some ingrown so that the hair can be pluck, it's so painful now. and it looks like mosquitos' bites. so i have to wear jeans later. second time i wear le... haha. i'm forced. can show my legs already for maybe a month. to let the hair grow back. yes, i feel so gay now. esp when i touch my leg. disgusted. hai.. i just hope the hair grown back can already. dun really care whether it's curly a not. hope the hair will be straight though. anyway, i cut my hair yesterday. and on sunday, i saw mr. soh kok meng at bt.purmei. haha. i still miss her. i wonder whether did i pass the so called virus thing to her. i'm worried she will be mad with me. sooon.. sat, i will have work to do again. hurray. but then i must save it up to return carlvin kor kor. and help to pay the car also. it cost $800+. more $300+ more than i thought. shit. arrrrrrrrh. i can feel my thighs pain also. cos there's ingrown also. hai... poor me. i wonder in future, if my girlfriend will mind me anot. i'm like metrosexual. worse than backham. at least beckham still got hair...
why can i always do the right thing.
i hope later go queensway, i can buy the shoes i like. with a lower price. *prays*
it will be weird going sp with jeans and slippers.
yesterday, i think is rosanne off day. hope she did enjoy her day.
okie.. i go liao. i'm going to be late.
why can i always do the right thing.
i hope later go queensway, i can buy the shoes i like. with a lower price. *prays*
it will be weird going sp with jeans and slippers.
yesterday, i think is rosanne off day. hope she did enjoy her day.
okie.. i go liao. i'm going to be late.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
i've got virus i think. i hope rosanne didn't accept the file. i shldn't have accepted ziyu file's in the first place. shit. i thnk many pple will kill me le. i can't sign in into msn. i really hope she didn't accept the file. i just sms her. really hope nth will happen. i hate virus. they suck. fuck the virus-er... i'm so fucking pissed. how am i going to apologise to everyone. lucky, there's not much people in msn. fuck fuck fuck fuck...
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
i was in teenfx. and after reading some post. i just put some toothpaste on the big cyst on my right cheek. wooooooooo.... it's so hot. cos it's colgate whitening. maybe it will help whiten my skin. lol. i like the feeling. cos it's hot, means its fighting the bacteria. killing all the 'bad pple' in my skin. they're having war right now. so it's abit pain, that's why that spot is feeling 'hot'. haha. i always believe in pain. cos means the good and bad is fighting. same to muscles. if it's not pain, means it's not growing. not stretch to its max. but too much pain will hurt very badly. i din go down and help for like a week already or maybe more? when is wei xiong going to call me. i need to work work work to earn the money to pay carlvin kor kor back.
i'm also wondering whether she have knocked off already. hope she had a good day. and her new supervisor is a good one, just like baluku..
i'm also wondering whether she have knocked off already. hope she had a good day. and her new supervisor is a good one, just like baluku..
i just cleared my hotmail inbox. and i think i just deleted a email from jamie yeo. that mail was in my 'junk mail' section. so without thinking even a second, i emptied everything. only to realise that maybe that's jamie yeo's mail to me. well, i hope not.
hmm,why she will email me leh? cos i made a dedication and shun bian ask her to email me lor.
though i know that's like impossible cos she's a celebrity? must have privacy.
i wondered whether did she read out the dedication just now about 8+-10, cos i didn't listen to radio. was watching tv.
huan le tian feng is so funny. was laughing like mad.
oh yes, i forgot to declare. i love carrie chong's voice. it was so a long ago thing. haha. her voice rocks. and she's sweet.
i'm wondering whether is she asleep now. or she's still vexed about her troubles. i hope not. i still think of her. and open up my phone whenever i wanted to see her...
hmm,why she will email me leh? cos i made a dedication and shun bian ask her to email me lor.
though i know that's like impossible cos she's a celebrity? must have privacy.
i wondered whether did she read out the dedication just now about 8+-10, cos i didn't listen to radio. was watching tv.
huan le tian feng is so funny. was laughing like mad.
oh yes, i forgot to declare. i love carrie chong's voice. it was so a long ago thing. haha. her voice rocks. and she's sweet.
i'm wondering whether is she asleep now. or she's still vexed about her troubles. i hope not. i still think of her. and open up my phone whenever i wanted to see her...
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