i wonder how long can i go on like this. it is suffocating. one more month left before i leave this school. i don't think i will come back here even if i have to retake o's. bad memories. at least to me. or is it because i compared it to pri sch, where i was more hardworking and excelled in sports. no one to talk to. no one i really want to tell will get to see the whole picture. it has been for one year. i was looking back at my friendster testimonial some time ago. and was surfing arnd just now. how i wished i could turn back time.
it is no use for me to type so much in here. no one really understands.besides , my english is so lousy. making things worse. how i wished i can blog like how umay did. tho i didn't really understand what she mean. but i can feel it. our bday is one day different. i am wondering whether zhi hao knows how i feel. or nyean chek.
i am still trying to get out of this vicious cycle.
i am blogging nonsense now. i don't feel it anymore.
i dunno myself too.

i think there is people feeling worse than me out there. like angeline.. have to see him everyday i supposed. i am not very sure. i didn't talked to her much nowadays. and she just have her group of friends. that i can be like one of them.

frankly speaking, i do not know what the hell i am blogging for? have this mixed feeling. x japan songs are nice.